I was suddenly diagnosed with anxiety in Feb 2017, and it's only getting worse. I've been on many different meds but they all seem to give me depression and suicidal thoughts which makes my anxiety worse. I'm constantly dizzy which is when the anxiety started, had multiple tests done that always come back clear so there's no explanation for the dizziness which scares me and increased my anxiety and depression. I've been seeing a therapist for several months, it helps sometimes but it's hard to take advice from someone who doesn't truly know the physical feeling of this crisis. I tend to think a lot about the past and how it will reoccurr in my future...a little bit about my past, my mother abandoned me at 11 years old, I was diagnosed with type 1 diabetes that same year prior to her leaving. I had a seizure and briefly died when I was 14 and had 1/4 of my brain removed at 15. I didn't have many friends after that as my father moved us from state to state when i was recovered from the surgery at 16. I'm now 30 years old, have an amazing wife and 2 beatiful daughter's, a great job and house but I'm constantly scared of everything. Scared of losing what I have, scared of a traumatic medical diagnosis again, scared to be alone, scared to be social because everything on the news just always shows people harming others. I wake up with anxiety and depression and go to sleep with it, the only thing that mildly relieves it is Xanax. Please help, I'm at a loss and ready to give up. I know it's selfish to do but I'm so lost and scared and just want to be my normal self again that I don't know what else to do
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