Depression and anxiety

[Hay4]

I'm 16 years old and I've been dealing with depression and anxiety since 5th grade. That was the first time I was ever bullied and self harm has been apart of my life for 7 years. I'm not almost 3 months clean but I have very rough days where I cry and I'll stare at the blade scared. I use to starve myself because I was bullied because of my weight but I don't anymore. I think that's it for now .

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hey! dont worry, we are here for you. pls dont harm yourself. you are very precious and we all in this group care about you. take care!

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Come on to here anytime for a chat, you can make some good friends on here with some really good people.

You can chat on the boards or use private messaging. ☺

Take care of yourself.

[mysmugcat]

Hello and welcome! Are you from the USA?! You have done so well not self harming. Do you know of alternatives to this; I can help you if so. Pm anytime. I have self harmed and had anorexia in the past.

[Hay4 in reply to mysmugcat]

Can you text me privately ?

[mysmugcat in reply to Hay4]

Sorry I was working, yes I will.

[Marie_Anne]

I'm so very sorry to hear of your suffering.

Are you close with your family members and or friends?

[Hay4 in reply to Marie_Anne]

I'm closer to my family

[Samanbkk]

I'm in Asia and I understand what u went thru, I had similar bullied events happened to me and no one helped- my teacher in 2nd grade didn't do anything when kids took n stole my things. Don't hurt urself- talk to ppl who can help and support u, we are all here for u!

[Samanbkk]

Maybe u should be somewhere with someone that makes u feel safe? Anyone can make u feel safe n take care of u?

[Hay4 in reply to Samanbkk]

Just my mom but she's busy

[Marie_Anne in reply to Hay4]

Can you give her a quick phone call or text message to let her know that you are down and that you'll need some support when she's available?

[Ubud2021]

You always have people to talk to here.

I used to self harm to. I can tell you, when you look back, it's not fun. It might even be embarrassing now. At least that's how it was for me. Even when I wanted to do it. What I found helpful was the good old rubber band trick. Along with a few other things. And talking to someone you fully trust. Especially someone whose been in those shoes. It's easier to share exactly how you feel without any weird feelings about it, or yourself.

Find what works for you. But just like smoking or any other addiction. You have to have some sort of will to stop. So find a good drive.

I've always been bigger. I was bullied so much, it still gets me to this day. SO WORK ON IT NOW!! I never really worked through my bully issues yet and I'm 24. I'm starting to though. The sooner you work on it, the sooner you can just let it go so it doesn't control you and make you feel the way you feel.

It's easier said than done, but don't let some a holes define you because of crappy school times. You're a lot stronger than you think. Especially with 7 months!! Keep it going. Try different healthier things. The lesser of two evils.

[Ubud2021 in reply to Ubud2021]

I hope you've thrown everything away by now. Because you can't really stop all the way when it's still sitting where you stashed it. Try putting a good memory there instead. It's hard, but not impossible.

[Celtic27]

Hi hay your post angered me a lot if theres one thing. I hate bullies they are the scum of the earth they dont realise that people like yourself have long far reaching problems caused by there cowardice ! I was bullied a lot in school for which they didnt to anything to the bullies i just wish schools would treat bullying for what it is harassment in the most damaging kind ! Do you seek any help with your problems if not please do david

[Celtic27]

Hi there don't think your alone bullying is all around us! Bullies are weak people who seek out those people they think are inferior and harass them to the point they self harm or worse! There are plenty of bullying help lines that may help you I'm not sure were you are but try your local library or phone book! I know how your feeling I was bullied all thought my school years and even in the work place I hated myself for not being able to fight back but this was 20 or 30 years ago and there wasn't the help there is now! Take care and don't think you have to suffer this alone reach out to someone you can trust for help and advice there are plenty of people in this group for starters! Take care and I wish you all the best to beat this! 👍