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Hey there... I'm a newbie. :)

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Hi, I'm sunshine and I'm new to this.

I have major depressive disorder, OCD, generalized panic disorder, agoraphobia, and anorexia.

In 2014, my ex-husband cheated on me and when I asked for a divorce, he hung himself in front of me a few days later. My disabled mother and I cut him down and resuscitated him. He survived with only minimal short term memory loss, thank God. I, on the other hand, lost myself.

I was completely isolated for about a year and a half and I recently moved back in with my mom. I have given up my career as a nurse and am now trying to focus on healing myself. It is very, very hard for me to go places and I have lost interest in most everything that I used to enjoy.

I do go to therapy and have been seeing a psychiatrist, but I did not like him. He doesn't seem to listen to me and believes that I am able to work... He actually encouraged me to get a job and allow myself to have another mental breakdown there so that I could get disability. I have already had that happen twice and I absolutely will not subject myself to such embarrassment and trauma again.

I have applied for disability and have been denied once. I now have a lawyer and am submitting my reconsideration. I never thought that my life would end up this way. I am only 28. I do NOT want to be on disability forever. I still want to finish my degree and work.

Anyway, this has been the most difficult 2 years of my life. I am hoping to meet others on the same journey as I am.

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giulianaD

I hear you. I have never thought I would be like this. It is horryfying.

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giulianaD

Hi there, seems we are all new. although we have all suffered for too long already. hang in there. find your purpose daily hon. be safe and you are not alone

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tricemarie

you a strong woman to leave you cheating husband, I wish I was strong like you.

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sweetiepye

Hello and welcome to our very kind and supportive site.I hope we will be able to help you, or at least give you some relief. Everything I say to you is just my opinion of course. I have had many of the illnesses you describe including the agoraphobia . I saw a behavioral therapist which means we didn't work on past behavior so much as we worked on current problems . This was very helpful to me and along with anti depressants I was able to start going out alone, face panic attacks etc. Your Doctor should be disbarred. I know that's a legal term, but it's all I could think of at the moment. Focus on yourself right now and take extra care. Getting over your anxieties will take a lot of energy. The idea of you working right now is crazy. You don't have enough energy to give to yourself and your patients. You would end up doing a disservice to both. Some day you will be healthy again and you will get your life back. I can hear the strength in you. You may be down, but you are not out. Cyber hugs to you from, Pam

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NFDK

Hello, sunshinedancer - and welcome. This really is a wonderful site, full of kind and caring people - people who have been on similar journeys to you and me. I can't really add anything to the wise, warm and encouraging words from sweetiepye , except to say - stick around. We'll get to know each other :-) With very best wishes, Wendy x

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