Hi, I'm sunshine and I'm new to this.
I have major depressive disorder, OCD, generalized panic disorder, agoraphobia, and anorexia.
In 2014, my ex-husband cheated on me and when I asked for a divorce, he hung himself in front of me a few days later. My disabled mother and I cut him down and resuscitated him. He survived with only minimal short term memory loss, thank God. I, on the other hand, lost myself.
I was completely isolated for about a year and a half and I recently moved back in with my mom. I have given up my career as a nurse and am now trying to focus on healing myself. It is very, very hard for me to go places and I have lost interest in most everything that I used to enjoy.
I do go to therapy and have been seeing a psychiatrist, but I did not like him. He doesn't seem to listen to me and believes that I am able to work... He actually encouraged me to get a job and allow myself to have another mental breakdown there so that I could get disability. I have already had that happen twice and I absolutely will not subject myself to such embarrassment and trauma again.
I have applied for disability and have been denied once. I now have a lawyer and am submitting my reconsideration. I never thought that my life would end up this way. I am only 28. I do NOT want to be on disability forever. I still want to finish my degree and work.
Anyway, this has been the most difficult 2 years of my life. I am hoping to meet others on the same journey as I am.