Hi. Well I've recently joined here with the major underlying want of feeling supported.
I've lost my motivation to do anything at all. I've been of the ambitious kind and I feel like I've hit my grave and that my life is worthless. I constantly keep worrying about how I'll survive, how will I succeed and I have this constant fear of losing everything.
I feel low most of the times and well I've lost the only friends I had for reasons pointing towards me.
Currently i just feel so l lost in life. I don't know where I'm heading. I'm lost and confused.
There's so many things I need to work on. I'm overweight because of PCOS, I've lost my confidence hence I want to lose weight and look pretty. I want to Excel in my career by being disciplined and I genuinely just want to work on myself. But I feel something holding me back.
This heaviness in my chest and this stress of literally everything. I feel like I'm living in a cage within.
I'm sick and tired of people telling me that I'm the only person who can help me and get me out of this. But sometimes I just don't want to fight anymore. Sometimes I just want to let go and feel the ease. Sometimes I'm just done with worrying because it's so exhausting and tiring.
I don't know "how" to get myself out of this.
I feel so lonely and not confident at all. I've lost my charm and I feel I'm capable of nothing.
Being active is such a task because my body feels so heavy. I have to push through a big rock to get even the simplest of tasks done. My mind won't stop thinking and i don't know what to do anymore.
Sometimes I just feel like ripping myself apart and letting it all out.