Hi everyone! I'm basically new here, have made 1 post introducing myself and explaining my issues. I suffer from severe depression, OCD and many of the anxiety disorders. Over the last month things have been SO bad. In that time, I have switched meds from Luvox to Prozac. I felt I wasn't doing good on the Luvox anymore so my Dr. put me on Prozac. I have been on it in the past with good luck as I've dealt with these issues since the age of 16, I'll be 40 next month. I'm up to 40 mg of the Prozac which I know can be increased but I'm really wishing I didn't make that med change now. Im having the worst anxiety attacks of my life. I literally don't know what to do with myself and things feel and seem like they couldn't get any worse. I have the strong thought of "I wish I was dead" and find myself wishing that was the case. Suicidal thoughts do run through my head although I'm quite certain I would never act on them. Scary!! I have a wife and my family is great, although none of them understand and I don't expect them to. I feel so alone and I'm sure a lot of that has to do with me isolating myself. I've tried therapy several times in the past and even went to a out patient day program with little to no luck. I feel like I'm un-helpable, that when I see these therapists and Dr's, that they don't know what or how to help me. I currently can't afford therapy as my insurance sucks and I haven't worked in over 5 years due to a work related injury where I easily could of been killed. That has lead to multiple surgeries and countless other procedures. The work comp battle alone is enough to beat anyone down. It's really sad how the system is, SO corrupt, and how hard they make it on the injured worker to receive their benefits. I did receive a small settlement after years of battling but it will be gone in no time as I've had to live off it. I believe the accident was the end of any possibility of leading any type of quality living and the end of my fight. I'm now left with daily, sometimes severe pain on top of all my mental issues. It's overwhelming!
What med has everyone found to work best for their depression and anxiety? I know sometimes it takes a combo of meds.
How do you guys/gals deal with anxiety attacks? I believe that's what I'm experiencing anyway. I'm on 0.5 of Xanax and have also tried Klonopin but they don't seem to do squat. I'm helpless... NOTHING works or helps.
After 25 years of the mental stress and the physical pain over the last 5, I'm truly running out of fight. As I tell my loved ones all the time, I don't want to do this anymore!! Feel like life just wasn't meant for this guy!
Sorry for the long post, hopefully a few have stuck around. I know I'm ultimately not alone and all of you suffer in your own ways as well. I'm sorry you feel what you do, I can definitely relate.
Take care and thanks for reading!!