i cant believe i came this far and today i realized it's been this long its a milestone for me .
things are getting a bit better feet still swollen but not been taking the naproxen as it made me come out in a rash . trying to lose a little weight now , by walking and gentle exercise but have to stop so often due to my feet but getting there . breathing is so much better i haven't used my Ventolin inhaler for a month now so i guess giving up was the best thing i could of done . i have had a few emotional days at the beginning of the month and i wanted something to calm myself down and yes i wanted a fag but i didn't do it i kept saying to myself you come this far don't give up now , then about a week ago i was so stressed with things going on in my life i could of gone to the local shop and brought 10 fags but instead of going shop i went for a walk but i was still stressed when i returned home . then i decided it is one of those days i cant cope with anything life throws at me , i am very stubborn sometimes . my mantra or whatever it is is " i have come this far ! why waste the time you just have done for one lousy fag . take each day as it comes , be strong you came this far , keep calm and no fags