Ive become a b##ch

So im just going into day three. I cant sleep but theres a few reasons for that first is its hot tonight.

Ive looked at some of the pinned posts, which have been great advice. Im vaping abit more then i was. Most nights i wud have my last fag at 10 so i have a vape then and go to bed.

I cud scream. Im really frusrated and get all angry over everything. I still am refusing to give in. People have said go and have a fag. Im like no and if u give me one i will break it. Ive ended my 12 year relationship tonight, ive told him about his self, his mother. I wud usually cry at the thought of being alone. I havent cried once. I havent reached for fags at the first thing that wud usually stress me out and usually chain smoke at. I dont even feel stressed over it. I wud usually go into anxious mode, have a panic attack. Instead nothing but cravings for a fag. Ouch i read it was just a pang in a book. Erm its more then just a pang its a nightmare.ive become the biggest b##ch wen im usually to nice with people. Even the kids have told me to have a fag. I need this to pass, i cant wait till it passes. Anybody how long as u took u? Or did u cope better?

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  • Hey Ddona,

    A lot of people feel like you do... Don't worry... It will pass... It's just a real waiting game... I was physically ill with headaches, nausea, aching teeth, muscle aches etc... If it wasn't for the reassurance from people on this site, I would have lit up that first month..... They reassured me all my symptoms were normal and would pass.... Hang in there โค๏ธ๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿปxx

  • Your doing great take deep breaths and try to focus on all the good things about quitting and feel proud of yourself the anxiety will pass!

  • Hi Dona, I was the same like proper uncontrollable rage, anger. Mine started about two weeks in but I was using patches and gum so maybe delayed the shock a bit. It did last for a while, maybe got easier over a month. You can control it though you have to make yourself sit down and breathe and relax. And you have to say to yourself it's not their fault you've quit and you can't expect them to know what it feels like. To most other people quitting smoking is not so sensational as it is to us. They say well done but don't understand the rage! I got thru it though and no one was seriously hurt during the making of the quit.

    Good luck and well done on not giving in ๐Ÿ˜€

  • Well said Andrew I actually feel quite abnormal because I just haven't any anger or rage just feel somewhat calmer :-) is this the calm before the storm I wonder? :-D dizzydona (love the name) :-) you are doing brilliant and you need to stay calm like Andrew says and try and take on board what people say on here that have been in this situation because they have stayed strong and got through it. Keep it up and puff away on your e-cig but do not give in to Mr nic ever :-)

  • Hi Donna, sorry about your relationship. Yes the anger is awful, I think I nearly ended up divorced, I was so horrible and to my kids too. People would also say go and have a fag, but like you I was determined, and glad I did. It's funny I don't really remember when that disappeared, think I was in to 6 weeks. It will pass believe me, your in your hardest time, so stick with it, you can do it. Shout out if you need help we are all here for you xx

  • That should say didn't :)

  • Didn't what? :-)

  • It reads like I did have a cig instead of didn't :)

  • Ooh Yeh :-D doh :-D homer Simpson moment I had there :-) I'm learning to read, slowly :-) maybe I should slow down abit more then I wouldn't miss things :-) hope you're having a fab hol maddyg don't forget to bring the 20 thousand pieces of rock that we will all need :-D x

  • I am thanks loving the fresh air and chillin ๐Ÿ˜€ yep Rock lol , wish I could , just had chocolate cake which I blame Andrew for๐Ÿ˜ nice though xxx

  • Ah ha ha ha ha ha ha ha haaaaaaa! You know what they say a moment on the lips... Well I really enjoyed the picture of the cake. Meanwhile I have managed to eat a humble salad and a ryevita with low fat spread. Am now fasting til sunrise ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚

  • Ha ha ha say no more ๐Ÿ˜Š I will eat a piece for you ๐Ÿ˜› tomorrow instead of walking I will have to jog ๐Ÿ˜ x

  • Well done dona for staying strong through all the cravings. Unfortunately the first few days can be tough but you really have to be patient. Your body and mind are going through big changes at the momentโ˜น๏ธ So try the breathing techniques to help those cravings pass. There is light at the end of the tunnel so hang in there๐Ÿšญ๐Ÿ˜Š

  • Well done dizzy, you didn't give in and that shows real determination and courage๐Ÿ‘

    It will pass but you gotta stay strong and tell your kids how your feeling..... That it will pass but they have to be patient with you and that you don't want to smoke... And they got to stop telling you to coz it ain't helping.... Maybe they could give up something to support you through the first few weeks ๐Ÿ˜Š

    Stay strong you can do it ๐Ÿ’›๐Ÿšญ๐Ÿšญ๐Ÿšญ๐Ÿšญ

    Ps sorry about your relationship ๐Ÿ˜Ÿ

  • I really like your idea Droopy, when I was very young I gave up sugar for lent several years in a row, each year it got harder and harder to stop eating it due to my addiction to it, once I was off the sugar, I literally had no appetite at all! Perhaps if the kids did have to give up something they love, like video games or a certain treat, it would help understand the withdrawal process :)

  • Hi Donna,

    my last quit before this one, I was feeling similar to what you are describing with the anger, and people letting me know that I wasn't being "nice" just made me more pissed off, like what makes them think they are so perfect the little snots!

    unfortunately, however, it wasn't really my choice, or my decision to quit last time, I was forced by many hands, so my anger stayed with me the entire 9 months and slipped back to Mr. Nic again because it was not what I truly wanted...

    this time around, it was my choice, my decision, and I do get the feelings of wanting to toss a book at someone's head from time to time (I'm talking dictionary thick, none of that paperback stuff :) ), and actually from the pinned posts I start doing my deep relaxing breathing to bring me back to my calm.

    I do feel that my emotions are much more...triggerable still, that I have to force myself to think before reacting at times...since before I would just storm off have a cig and would let whatever was bugging me go...now I stop and breathe, I actually will even close my eyes and just focus in on the actual sound, and feeling in my body of each breath.

    you are doing great, the first few weeks are the hardest, keep your chin up and the determination to not smoke a cig, come on here as often as you like and vent or read through posts to clear your mind, there is always someone around.

  • Aup Donna, I'm so sorry your relationship ended :( :( BUT, a MASSIVE GREAT BIG WELL DONE TO YOU :) :) you stud firm and didnt give into you know flippin whooooo :) :) I am so so PROUD of you Donna, I really am gal, cos you been through the ringer :) :)

    Donna, I see you've had some great help and advice already and I thank our lovely members for that :) :) and all I can add really is, that we are all different in mind and body and react differently when we first quit smoking :o

    There's one part of your mind wanting flippin fags NOWWWWWW :o and the other part is saying, well ya aint flippin getting any see :P :P Sooo, there's a very big argument going off in your head at the moment :o You need to find a way of calming this down :)

    YES, SCREAMMMMMMM bugger the flippin neighbours :o go thump something like a cushion, pillow, get that anger out of you somehow :) cos thats what it is :o Donna, if you would please have a look at the pinned posts, you will find a post on there about the -- Little sweet angel & the little red devil :o

    Maybe try breathing exercises that have been mentioned :) but perhaps try - cupping your hands together, put them to your face over your nose and mouth, then try some really deep breaths, hopefully, this may calm your anger down a bit eh :) If that fails, then just go and bash somebody :o but it wont be me, cos I swing about in the tree's see :P :P :D :D :D

    Take care now Donna and stay STRONG cos were allllllllllll with ya gal :) :) xx

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