Hi Everyone, just arrived back from a couple of days in a Monastery (no less)!! I went with a friend to try to get my head together after the devastating news about the lung cancer in July. It has been a lovely time of peace and tranquillity. Still no fags in my life - and it still remains great that I can go anywhere I wish without having to work out where my next ciggy will be. Certainly - the Monastery would have been the most difficult to date!
I thought I would update you on my Journey with Lung Cancer. Have to have yet another biopsy as the other 2 were not conclusive enough, so Wed will be when they hopefully, get a proper sample, to determine the type of chemotherapy they are going to use.
I met my Oncologist on Thursday - and it totally mashed my head up, because up until then I had been told that the treatment would be Palliative. The Bombshell on Thursday, was that she was hoping to treat me with CURE in mind!!!
I wonder would she have said the same had I still been smoking? It has been 19 weeks since my last ciggy, I still use NRT, but a little less than before.
I am not looking forward to the treatment - which will start in about 10 days time, and will be intravenous in hospital. I have heard such a lot about it - but I will have to now change my mind set, to get through this part of it.
Ollie - my lovely cat has now been rehomed because of the fact that he would be an infection risk - more so because he had a tendency to bite when frightened - his previous owners frequently hit him. I miss his little furry body walking over my lap, and him meowing loudly to be fed.
However, the moral of this post - is for everyone who is thinking of having a puff - DON'T - you never know which of the odd puffs is the one that starts the Cancer off. If this sounds harsh - it is true - my whole life has been devastated because I always thought that it happens to other people. Well, "happen" it has, and I really really don't want any of you guys to be the next on the list for the Big C. HANG IN THERE ONE HOUR/MINUTE AT A TIME - BUT DON'T EVEN THINK SMOKING IS AN OPTION, unless you want to join me on my journey.
On a lighter note - even though the above is my life at the moment - I have a very clutter free house - minimalistic etc as I had prepared for the worst. So glad I didn't get rid of my Xmas Tree!!
Well - I am now getting ready to do 'Battle', and looking at various activities I can start to do during the time I'll be feeling somewhat rubbish. here's hoping for the CURE!! Any suggestions gratefully received!! xxxx