Struggling can anyone give any advise

[Charlotte-]

I was misdiagnosed for years... with bipolar after a breakdown 6years ago after a break up from my child father.

Found out recently its maybe panick disorder.

I lost faith in docters and am trying to do this without meds.

I've tried hypnotherapy but it's to expensive to keep up with.

I take string antihistamines to help sleep and for sickness and sweats.

I'm really struggling... and have this uncontrollable fear that bad things will happen to those I love... it's been the worst the most 4 months and these fears and feeling have come out of nowhere. Panick attacks are in full swing but I can control them better then I could.

I have cbt tomorrow.. only had the assessment part so far.

I'm reading up on so much meditation grounding affirmations... I've really educated myself alot on this which was how I realised I was misdiagnosed.

Theres been alot of family issues and health issues and it's just triggered me off. I can go weeks without food,days and nights no sleep.. this is where the antihistamine does help (promethazine) just to get some sleep in alone.

I'm really struggling atm... any kind of help theres months and months of waiting or I simply can not afford it.

I just want to finally get myself sorted for my little boy! Hes older now you cant hide it asw well as when they are babies.

Finally have a life for us both... so if a time had any advise or words of wisdom it would be greatly received xxx

[purplevscoteen]

Hello, I have also been misdiagnosed by most doctors I have seen so it is super common. I find that before seeing a doctor for anything do some research of your symptoms and bring up what you think oftentimes the tests will show the potential diagnosis of the patient correct. I also generally distrust the medical establishment though as a half Canadian I was nearly killed by doctors twice in Alberta because they didn't look into medications before giving them to me even though I have allergies. I haven't had the same problem in the US but I understand care here is unaffordable. I find that for a lot of problems a strict lifestyle plan has helped me recover from GAD and panic disorder. I never panic anymore. I had a naturopath assign me a paleo diet, yoga/workout plan, a CBT app, and some vitamins, also ensuring you spend time each day engaging in hobbies, and trying to remove yourself from as many toxic situations as possible will help. I find ginger for nausea, melatonin, and keeping a cool dark comfy room best for sleep with anxiety. If you are committed to CBT which an app and journal can help with hopefully your fear will reduce. I also found peppermint oil put on the wrist and then sniffed for about half an hour just try your best to focus just on the scent it is super calming. Anyways this is what I did to overcome my anxiety it took 2 years of consistency but the results are well worth it. I don't know if any of this advice will work for you but I hope it does. All the best.

[shawshankredemention]

It is going to be ok. Many of us struggle with panic disorder. I know it sucks, but with time you will learn to separate out a panic attack from reality. I know the fear of harm coming to a loved one. But that is all it is, fear, not reality. Meditation has helped me stay grounded in present, instead of worrying about the future. Worrying about the future robs you of the joy in the present. You can do this but it will take plenty of practice. Think of it as exercise, you can't get in shape tomorrow, but you can with therapy and medication regain your life. Others have and so will you. Hang in there, you are worth it and one day you will be able to explain it to your son and he will be so grateful for the hard work you did.