Today I'm telling a story of a lie. A lie that we all hear. It's okay not to be okay! Absolutely dumb, it's not ok that I wake up every morning in pain. It's not ok that I hear voices screaming in my head. It's not ok that I'm unable to get help. I'm a part of a suicide prevention group and I'm one of the only people there who has actually experienced these thoughts and feeling. It's frustrating hearing people with no experience throw these phrases around like candy as if they're a magical solution. It's not ok that I'm not ok, and phrases like that make it seem like my struggle is less. That it's not important because "it happens to everyone." Not everyone hears scary things in there head every minute of every day. Not everyone wakes up crying from memories that they didn't want to remember. It's not fair. It's not ok that I'm not ok, someone needs to reach out and help. Someone needs to believe my struggle. And it's so upsetting when people just respond to my hurt with "it's ok to not be ok" because that diminishes all of my experience. Please tell me you can relate lol.
Sorry for the little rant post guys! I was trying to reach out to a hotline, and they told me this and hung up so I'm pretty upset about it and I've kinda been rant posting all day. I bring this up because this sort of language shouldn't be commonplace. They're supposed to be in support of mental health when they really are used to tear us down and that's so frustrating.
Crashed. And it's not even February. :(
Mute. ‘ Trigger Warning’
A thank you to those who help us....
How Can I Relate To People Anymore?
Searching for answers. 
