Hey everyone,
I started my 2nd round of ICSI on Saturday. My first failed round ended in just 2 eggs being collected to which neither fertilised. The consultant mentioned poor egg/low ovarian reserve and I have also got low amh levels. I started taking DHEA in August 2019 alongside COQ10 Ubiquinol and also a LOT of other supplements.
I had my first tracking scan today to which they discovered 3 follicles up to where they should be and another 3 that could potentially grow over the weekend of stimms. They have upped my stimms from the last round. I am on 300 Menopur, 150 Gonal F and 250 Cetrotide.
I know I should feel more positive as this is more than last time, but if the 3 smaller ones do not develop then I have only produced one more follicle than last time and 3 is just such a low number. I am feeling so low. Have felt so emotional all week and very teary. I just don't know what to do now. I am due my egg collection on Friday next week but I just cannot see the light at the end of the tunnel and it feels exactly the same as round 1. I feel so helpless. Can anyone give me some advice? I have got the mindful IVF app but I just want to stop thinking about it for just a second. It is on my mind constantly. I am so worried that it is not doing me any good either for things to further develop. I just don't know where to turn to now. 😔😔😔😔😢😢😢😢
Thank you all in advance. Xxxxxx
Hey, I had 24 follicles on the scan, 16 collected, 9 mature and only 3 fertilised. It really doesn't matter as long as you end up with one good one and this could be the only one you need. I know it's hard and horrible and sad, but you've come so far already and it might not seem it now but you will be a damn sight stronger than when you started all of this and that's something to recognise. Your doing so well to get this second show on the road and it's OK to feel rubbish, don't beat yourself up over it. I believe that even though we have science on our side, a lot of this is down to luck. You can just try your best to shove the nasty thoughts out and say a positive affirmation instead, when they creep in change it to something like, this can work and these negative thoughts don't help me. So Eat cake, watch good films and think of your follicles growing nice and big ready for the picking! ❤️ Xxx
Thank you Holly T7 for your advice. Xx