Want to say thanks to you all for words of advice and encouragement on here. Have been reading lots of other posts and am amazed by the level of support, quality of advice and words of comfort on here. You are all amazing ❤️
I'm off into hospital on 27th of this month (Dec16) for bowel prep for op on 28th. Never really been scared of an operation before but as this one is going to be my longest by far (I've been told it will take 6-8 hours at least) and the fact that it needs three surgeons with so many possible outcomes when I wake up, I'm scared. Don't want to talk to my family about being scared as they're all scared and anxious enough for me that I don't want to add to that. I keep smiling and telling them not to worry, I'll be fine....but I'm terrified.😱
I have stage IV endo with cysts and mass in pelvis (which they are pretty sure is just a chocolate cyst - gathering of old blood from bleeding endo) which has adhesions to bowel, bladder and vag. Prolapse x 3 also (hopefully) going to be sorted in the same surgery. Ovaries going to be removed too as I've already had sub total hysterectomy and the ovaries have cysts. They hope this will slow/stop new endo forming.
As they have to tell you all possible outcomes, I was told I could wake up with colostomy, drains, no prolapse repair etc etc etc. They didn't say what they are hoping to actually achieve in the best case as there are so many variables despite having had a lap and MRI pre op. I think this is what is scaring me. I have no idea what they will be able to do as they are concerned that, due to the extensive nature of the endo, there might be nowhere to place mesh for prolapse repair that hasn't got a wound where endo will have been removed.
However, even with the uncertainty, I can't wait to be endo free and start next year getting better.🍾
Thanks to each and every one of you have fought your own corner to get to where I am now. You have helped me to get through my waiting list time. I wish each and every one of you love, light and life for Christmas and the year to come.🎄🎅🏼
Big love, G ❤️