Just pulled through a real bad couple of days...

Had a bad couple of days , just feeling like I've pulled through it to feel a little better..

I broke down when I went to the therapist yesterday and could only best describe myself as a broken woman....I was in bits.

I am sure I have and still am in denial about being ill. Although I am gradually realising what I thought would go away after giving up my job and after a couple of weeks of rest just isn't the case. I think I got scared after working all my life I had become nothing...

Today feels a little better have a Dr visit Saturday to go to.

I still cannot believe how bloody debilitating this illness can be, I just never understood...it's a total eye opener..

This site has helped me a lot and I am forever grateful to those who have had an input especially when I thought people would be sick of me..I am more grateful for that than you will realise..it's truly a gift to have people who understand, I think I may have lost it by now without this as one of my outlets...thank you just doesn't seem enough,

Sue x x x x x

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Hi sue well you have pulled yourself through a couple of bad days and I know that isn't easy. It feels like there's no light at the end of the tunnel but there is hun really there is. Breaking down on your therapist is kind of like accepting this illness. I did it and my therapist said it was a good sign as you are no longer pretending to "be fine". Get all the help you can and take small steps its incredibly hard physically and emotionally so be kind to yourself and we would never be sick of you. Big hugs love eve x

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Thank you so much Eve, it means a lot xxxx

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Hi Sue, I'll echo Eve. It's tough at the start but you are beginning to accept. as she says, get all the help you can and you will get through. You've made the start to feeling better.

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Thank you Kaz.....appreciate your comments xxx

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Well done. Keep going. Mine seems to build up and i break down for couple days then bit better again. Happens every week or two. Bloody groundhog day! Trying to learn ways to stop the cycle. X

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Thank you Blue seems we all suffer very similar things. It sure helps to know your not alone

Xx

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It's good to hear you've pull through after a bad few days keep up the positive thinking. Reading a blog like this gives me hope that I can get through the slump I'm in at the moment.

Like you I am so grateful for this site and the wonderful people on it. Enjoy the rest of your week and the coming weekend.

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Will thank you. It's so good to share it...I am sorry you are having a slump at the moment,MIT will pass. I really had no hope for a couple of days..today I am weak but not as bad, never thought I would get here...I know I have a long way to go....

Thinking of you, hope it passes soon

Sue xxx

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Hi Sue,

Glad your feeling a bit better, hope the therapist is helping you.

Wishing you well

B

xxx

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Thank you B, thank you for your input it helped greatly, I know I have a long way to go, but I don't feel as bad and that is. A good start

Thank you again x. X x

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Hi,

I can so relate to what you said. I worked for years in healthcare, looking after others, long ir regular shifts, shite pay but I loved the job. I had a bad time at last place so I quit. Now I feel like all those years of caring and training have been for nothing and I feel useless some days. Like I'm nothing.

Glad to hear your feeling better though. I never realised how this illness can effect every aspect of who we are. I too am so grateful for everyone's support on this site.

It's nice to know we are not alone xxxxxx

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Aw yours years weren't for nothing I bet there were lots glad of your help...I understand and thank you for sharing.

We are definitely not alone and you helps lots of people on here too.

Hug to you xxxx

[misaq]

hi sue , im glad you found the strength to share your story, crying is one of the things we do alone , in the safety of our homes, its a private thing so i was lead to believe. my life consists of living on a spiral...sometimes i go up , other times i go down.

you will get through with the correct support , you hit the bottom now you can get back up, it takes time but im sure you will get there...

take care

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Thank you Misaq, your comments are appreciated, I understand the spiral too.

Take care

Xxx

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Hi Sue have sent you a pm. I have been out of work now for 3 years and I too feel useless and really miss being part of something bigger than me. I also miss the money.....

So I do know exactly how you feel.

Bev xx

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Hi Bev

I really appreciate your help over the last couple of days it has helped me tremendously....you are most certainly not useless in y eyes..

Thank you so much x x xx x

[Psychgrad]

Hi Sue, as you know I'm struggling at the moment too! Worried I'll never be able to work and what that would mean for my future. Stay strong and make sure you get the support you need from the dr's tomorrow, we're all here for you xxx

[Pickle165]

hi sue, i too dont think i would be abel to cope without this site. we are all struggling right now and its nice to know we are all going through it together. thinking of you. xxxxxxx