Wel my son rang the house today to speak to my mum but still didnt want to speak to me, he said he'll be in touch at some point...... I feel so angry that my mum didnt defend me, I have had years of mental abuse from my ex, while I was with him and since splitting...... My mum saw what he put us all through, not just me, and now my son is carrying on making me feel crap.... I had to let my son go live with his dad as he terrorised my family until I did, I never bad mouthed his dad and believed it was the right thing to do, obv his dad has done nothing but bad mouth me in order to make his actions look right......
I thought Id done the right thing until last year when he just stopped talking to me, accused me of reporting is dad for being a paedophile when he was younger (no idea what he was talking about) but accused me of all sorts.......
My ex has obv filled his head with crap, and then my son stopped talking to me..... Its has been a very hard thing to live with, and he didnt want anythingh to do with any of my family, but today hes rang and spoke to my mum, (thats a good thing right) but I just feel crap all over again, like his dad is twisting the knife once again.....
Ok I was a shit mother for letting him go live with his dad, I made a mistake, but I did what I thought was the right thing at that time, how did I know what his dad was going to do... Do I have to pay for the rest of my life!!!
Sorry everyone I just had to rant and get it out.... Im absolutely heartbroken over my son, I had years and years of abuse off my ex, and I couldnt cope anymore, I thought I did the right thing....... how do I come to terms with this without it ruining every one of my relationships!!