Can't sleep and having serious tremors since starting new job please help

I have been suffering with depression and had finally got in to a good place. Got a new job and now I can't sleep I feel sick the night before and the final get to sleep about 1. then the other night I started getting tremors that would not stop, I felt dizzy and a general fear that something terrible was going to happen, I wanted to go out of my house and just run and run. I final nodded of at 4:30ish from shear exhaustion, but was wide awake at 6:15. It's so bad I had to call in sick. I am scared i am going to have to give up this new job as every time I think about work the tremors start, the only good thing is my arms are getting one hell of a work out. I thought I was better and now all this, what's wrong with me it's like I'll never be ok. I am ruining my life again, and I don't know what to do.

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Hi worrier,

I know where you're coming from, it seems that I keep throwing myself into positive situations and making good moves but the anxiety always comes back. I'm sorry that you're feeling so uneasy again, but if you're anything like me you're pprobably putting too much pressure on yourself with the new job. Remember you're only human, you can only do so much. Xx

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Hi thanks for answering me.

I feel so alone and don't know what to do. I have been doing my worry sheets and my relaxation techniques but nothing is helping. I am worried that if I do quit that it will put a black mark by my name at the organisation. There are not many employers in my field of work. I wish I had never gone to university as my stupid degree only gets me work in this field. I sound so self absorbed and should be grateful I have a job. I don't have anyone to talk to as I haven't got any friends, and my family's getting sick of it and just want me to get on. I feel trapped.

[fadedlizard]

Hi Worrier,

I'm sorry anxiety is making your life so difficult at the moment. Are you seeing your GP? Have they suggested any meds? If not I would certainly try that route.

I appreciate how difficult it is not to have friends around you. There is only so much we want to put onto our families.

Try not to be too hard on yourself love, yes, we all want to be at work but if you're too ill you're too ill. That's just a fact. If you'd broken your leg you'd do what you needed to do to heal, wouldn't you?

If you decide to try keep going all I can suggest is to keep using all your techniques, especially the breathing exercises. Keep reminding yourself this is just anxiety and you'll be doing xyz with or without it. Try not to engage with the thoughts and feelings, just let them go by. I know that is very hard when it's a physical symptom you're trying not to engage with - don't ignore it, acknowledge it's presence and then go back to the task in hand. It's hard but it isn't impossible. I'm proof of that.

Good luck,

Let us know how you get on.

Love,

Lizard.xxx

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Hi, thanks for answering me.

I am ment to be being discharged from CBT, which was why I felt like I was getting somewhere and now this. I tried to get hold of my councellor but could not and ended up on the net and found this site.

I felt so alone and it is good to know that there are other people out there. I think I am going to my GP tomorrow as the tremors start every time I think out work, this is the only thing that convinced me it was anxiety and not anything else.

I feel much calmer just having found this site.

[fadedlizard in reply to Hidden]

Definitely go back to your GP and see if you can get an appointment with your counsellor sharpish to talk it through.

It will be anxiety but it's a demon to live with sometime, especially when it's latched onto something inconvenient ~ your new job for example

I'm glad you've found this site though. The people are very helpful and supportive and it's so reassuring sometimes to know we're not alone with our heads!!!