Hello. I'm new to this site am due to start a new job tmr it's 11 am and I feel sick with fear I'm crying and just feel dread. I've had anxiety for years and it's really affected my ability to work I've left jobs and had many offers which I didn't start. That's not helping as I've been here before no matter how much I want to get back to work I just can't get myself through the door on the first day and then I spiral as I feel awful about letting people down. I've been out of work for 6 months so frankly I need the money and I know work would be goodelighted for my mental health I spend 90 per cent of my time alone at home hardly a good thing. I feel ridiculous and desperate. Sorry this is a ramble. I'd really appreciate anything anyone might suggest.