Had my first meeting.funny old morning.

[Trip]

Good morning all, well today was the day for the first meeting with the IAPT team!

Il give you a little run down of this morning

Woke up after one of the worst nights sleep, but having this on my mind was the reason.

But anyway got to the hospital at 8.40 for my 9.00.am meeting and i hate being early to things like this i likr to just walk in the door in to the room and then home but nope i have 20mins.

So what does one that suffers from anxiety and depression do for 20mins...... well i spent the first 5 mins going OCD on a pile of paper that someone had left on a table! only for a cleaner to walk over to it and put it all in the bin!

Yup I had that look on my face! you know the one "do you know who long that has taken me to line that all up"!

So now had 15mins left the next 5mins was spent having a play in the lift! 1 floor 2 floor 3 floor....... hospital basement! dear god it was like the door opening to heel. no one person in there and no light on...... door closed with me in the lift 2nd floor! oh thank god back where i started.

So 10 mins left and panic kicks in! all i want to do is run!

But no i am not running away.. i walk in the the waiting room to find around 20! people all sitting there and every one of the turn around and look at me!

And for the some reason that i still do not know i looked at all of them and said " any one want to go for a smoke?" yup that's right so about 18 out of the 20 people were all standing out side with me smoking...

5mins left it felt like i was waiting to be given a prison sentences, me feet were tapping on the floor i was shacking and just could not sit still.

Terry! called the lady from down the hall.............

Oh dear god this is it a 1 on 1 chat with someone i dont know in a small room in a place i don't know!

After 20mins of me using every tissue in the box because i could not hold back the tears from talking about things.. i let it all out and it has to be the best thing i have done in a long long time.

I have to go back next week

But this time i will be there at 9 not before!

Trip

x

[Hidden]

Ah well done Trip...

Hopefully this is the start of your road to feeling a little better!! Lovely blog and you made me smile!!

Lots of Love

x

[Hidden]

Well done Trip,

Made me chucke through that with the smoking and the papers. Good to keep your humour.

Lou x

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Well done Trip ! so pleased that you are getting some help , its hard opening up , but yes it does make you feel better , good for you

lou is right , its good we keep our sense of humour , we need it with this

love

whywhy

xxx

[Take-That-Fan-01]

Glad to hear it went well x TTF01

[Pickle165]

wow well done ..........you walked in and asked who wanted a smoke.......bloody hell id hit the floor could never do that well done mate. when i get to waiting rooms i wait just outside the doors to the waiting room so i can still hear my name called. good for you. x

[sheffieldwed]

ah trip you make me smile and well done you its good to get everything off your chest i hope you feel a little better hun and if i was there wud have come 4 a cig with you too funny that! So pleased for you keep going xxx

[Kaz12345]

ha, ha Terry, you made me smile. Someone probably walked into the waiting room wondering where everyone had gone! 'it has to be the best thing I've done in a long time'. yay, let it all hang out baby! seriously, this is your first step ... Well done.

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lol and lol again, well done you, i can imagine the look when the cleaner done that lol, im so glad you didnt just melt in the waiting room when everyone looked at you. i would have dribbled to the floor. very brave. xxx