so what, its really not for me anymore, loved it when i was a kid of course, but not now, my ideal christmas would be not to see anyone, you bundle of fun you VV, i get anxious when the phone rings, anxious when the door bell rings, so i just want to be left alone. billy no mates, just call be billy then, mind you it was great when you was a youngster wasnt it, just thinking back now, i swear one christmas eve he was in my room, but i was too scared to look, well i didnt want some stranger in me room did i, how did he get in we didnt even have a bloody chimley. perhaps he used to be a tea leaf, and picked the lock on the front door,
just watching father ted, so fecking funny, drink, girls,
i have kept up my walk since i first came on here, and slowly made it bigger, pretty pleased with myself really, im keeping a diary on my efforts, and how i feel each time i do it, i have been anxious sometimes but try to just stay in the moment rather than the usual head for home as quick as possible, its always worse at the half way point when im just as far from home to carry on, as i am to turn around, this is a real problem area for me, but i try to just keep walking and think of something else until im through that patch.
last year i was suffering from a type of anxiety, where i would think of an event such as christmas and set my mind on stopping it, i know, crazey uh, this was a great one, as i could never achieve my goal, so i always felt awful, well at least this year im not trying to stop chrismas, who the hell was i the grinch, i dont know vv what do you get up to in that crazy head of yours. soon be chrismas all, dont come around mine though your not coming in, vv x