This build up now to my holiday at the moment isn’t helping, I try to put it out of my mind but then I have to get things like travel insurance and esta form etc so while I deal with it at the time I’ve been getting somewhat anxious for the past few days, shaky, tight head and muscles worrying and so on. I am looking forward to it as i know it will do me good, it’s all the thinking, packing and the rest, I can’t deal with too many things all at once. My granddaughter has been helping me with choice of clothes, she’s put all the toiletries etc in a zipped bag for me and written a list so I can check off as I go along. I’ve had the suitcase ready in the spare room for ages now 🙄
Deep breathing helps. Started on Sunday I wasn’t feeling brilliant but I went to another granddaughters for dinner, there’s a new bus route so I didn’t know where I was when I got off and she’s the one who lives in a flat on the 7th floor, I walked up 3 flights then got on the lift with her and she sang silly songs until we got out 😂. Had dinner but I was feeling. a Little claustrophobic so by the time I left and got home I was worn out.
I’ve still got another 4 weeks yet before the holiday, so need loads of distraction and the friend I’ve been seeing a lot of is on her holiday now for a month.
Phew, sorry about the long essay 🙄 needed to get it out.
I hope everyone’s ok ❤️
Sam xx