Coping with anxiety is ultra weird because you would think you have control over your emotions but one day that just slips away.
It's been about 4 months since I joined this site and ever since I've been feeling so much better. And most important in control, yes, I understand or try to understand what is going on. Because of this I no longer think death is near.
Off course some attacks do occur. Last Saturday I was in London watching a play. I was sitting in a balcony, high above the ground, and the seating arrangement was quite tight. I kind felt like I was in a box.
The play started, lights out, theatre doors shut, loud music, then 5 minutes into the play I began to wonder if the theatre doors were locked and if I would be able to get out of there. Plus the fear of heights took over and I started to imagine myself falling from the balcony. Shivers, dizziness, and the usual cold sweat for about 30 minutes but I was able to control it.
I was happy when the interval came and the lights went on so I went outside for a walk. That helped a lot, plus I was able to notice that the balcony wasn't that high at all and that there was another balcony just below. In a nutshell, there was no way I could fall from that balcony.
For the next part of the play I was back again to being carefree and happy and I really enjoyed the night.
In summary, I believe the 'attacks' as a challenge to my emotions, I don't fight it and try to read when my body is saying. Most times it's just because I am either tired or worried.
I would tell others the same thing, no drugs, you can do it yourself.