Feeling really down and alone this evening.
I used to play games and have a few smokes in the evenings,
Ive smoked since I was 14, I am now 25 and my anxiety says if i even have 1 more Ill die.
I know smoking is super bad for you and I should of given up years ago but Im just making a point of how ridiculously controlling my anxiety is.
I just want to run away
I take no enjoyment out of anything anymore, I cant even eat chocolate because im terrified of the sugar content
On top of the random stomach pain that has completely ruined my life lately, Im just laying here thinking, will this ever get better?
When will I be able to enjoy even 5 minutes out of my life?
Anybody out there?