I am terribly shy antisocial and have been on the sick for 6 mths with severe depression panic attacks.. Finally after the death of my mother whom I looked after during her final months with vascular dementia, I sought help from my Dr and have been having counselling which is slowly helping, I have also got a helper who takes me once a week to the library for a reading group .. it was hard at first but it is a little step for me. I still cant travel alone and walk most places.. I still cannot go into a crowded place without feeling that I need to run and hide. My medical reports from when I was a child say anxious child my school reports say painfully shy.
So I am not putting it on not pretending.. But atos seems to have other Ideas the Doctor was to see was Ill so I saw a Nurse I explained my fear of travelling alone meeting people and how it makes me feel how even visiting them has made me feel desolate..
Of course the say I must go on a work related scheme a bus ride away I told them I cant travel , I have to have an interview with other people and visit them regularly don't they listen? The doctor is proud of me for my baby steps and me to but I am sitting here thinking of where i will have to go meet people its all rushed.... I am 57 and never claimed a penny up untill now sorry to be so long but just needed to get of my chest