Today I called out of work because I always have this feeling like I'm too much of a burden but people tell me I'm not. But I feel so that I am.
I don't know why I feel that way. I tend to leave people alone or do things apart from them because I don't want to feel like I'm a weight on their shoulders.
I mean it bothers me that I feel that way, but not really, because I felt that way about people for so long that I don't care.
And this goes for all my relationships with people. I feel like they can always do better. I think they're dumb for wanting me. I also think it was dumb for my mom to give birth to me but its too late to change that now.
I don't live and I don't mind it sometimes. You can't necessarily miss what you never had.