Not even todays rain could dampen my spirit and so it would seem nothing can.
I cant say for sure exactly what has happened recently,all I know is,I do feel different but also and significantly,my whole perspective has changed.I am no longer the huge sceptic that I was.I now have a completely open mind to all forms of treatment,I no longer believe that I can do it alone without help.Maybe that is the answer,simply believing that I can be helped,maybe that is all I needed to start feeling better,because I do feel better and the only thing to change is my attitude.
Sure,I am on the tablets but I don't believe its the medication,I believe its me,self medicating in my mind from where the problem stems.
For me people,it is working,yes,I have changed a few things also,not been to the gym for two weeks,let the strict diet go a little,got a bit lazy including lying in bed,something I have never done.
Maybe,just maybe I have learned how to let go and relax.I was asked the question the other week"can you sit with yourself" the answer was no and I thought about that question for a while.The answer to the question is now a hearty "yes" I can sit with me and quite happily.