Me again, think I'm going to change my screen name to Moaning Minnie! 
Jusst - I'm not feeling well/am depressed, most people i know seem to be struggling with health/money/life issues - it just feels like the worst Christmas ever
Please, someone, tell me it will be all right! 
xxxxx
Trust me, I'm not a doctor, it will be alright.
Aww Rose you will be just fine. I was feeling like my head was going to explode yesterday, spent most of the day in bed, and i even kicked off on my OH, really out of character for me, i was horrible yesterday. Today, i have vowed to fight it, and ive felt ok all day, i even went out and got a bit of xmas food shopping (still got to get a few more bits and go the butchers for me meat), also, had to take my gran son to hospital to get his head glued back together, he fell in school, hes fine tho, he's got autism and is very hyper, so its not going to be the last i will be seeing Alder hey lol, i never had a panic attack seeing blood, i cant really believe how well ive coped today and i still feel fine.
So, chin up hun, if i can fight this illness, and ive been really bad lately, im sure anyone can. Fingers crossed im fine again tomorrow, im just going to force myself out and about and i might even visit the stables again, its been a few weeks.
Hope your'e feeling better, i know its hard to cheer yourself up, try and watch a funny dvd like Lee Evans or John Bishop, that will get you giggling, laughter is the best medicine.
Hugs
Lin xx
Hi, I think its expected at Christmas, that you HAVE to be in the mood! My husband has 2 children but this year they are spending Christmas with their mum so it left me very down as I find Christmas is more for the children.
But I have turned the tables around and thought about the positives about having a few days off work and being with my hubby watching rubbish tele and eating rubbish foods! Home is my happy place so I supposed this is some what comforting for me.
It WILL be okay, I know sometimes its easier said than done but don't look at the materialistic things and go back to basics, enjoy the things u have around u, treasure the simple things in life. Take each task step by step and day by day it will get easier. x
Hi. Rose. I think you have to find the real you. The strong, sensible, outgoing Rose not the one that gets her knickers in a twist over the slightest thing. Over the last few months I have come to know you from your blogs and there is that sturdy character below all this fretting and worry. Yes Rose, it is there but it is submerged by all the other stuff that the time of year does not help one little bit. It is this deep current that drives the ship along, not the surface waves that kick up such a fuss. I know you know what I mean! At this moment my heart goes out to you as I have felt the same many, many times. Consolation is almost impossible to appreciate when you feel the way you do and you can only take one day at a time. Anyway, we cannot have a sad Rose on this site. You are an inspiration and we miss you when you are like you are now. Keep trying, Rose, and prayers and blessings are with you. jonathan.
Rose, never think of yourself as a moaning minnie. You have every right to say how you feel on here. Nobody sees it that you are moaning. Its how you feel, and this is what this site is all bout your feelings, the good days and the bad days.
Big hugs and love
Lou xxx
Darling Rose,
It's horrible when you feel like this. Don't worry about coming on here and "moaning" - it's what this site's here for. A place where you can be yourself and say what's really on your mind.
It doesn't last forever but you know that already. But one of the worst things about this illness is that everytime you have a bad episode your mind closes down and refuses to see any light in the darkness. (Unless it's an oncoming train of course, my mind is always looking for those lights!!!)
Keep in touch, love and I'm sure you'll be feeling better soon.x
Thank you, thank you, thank you! You're all such lovely, caring, kind people, I am SO glad i found this site - and you! I WISH I could believe it will get better - I really do try - tbh I've had a lot of knock-backs in my life (won't bore the pants off you lol) so sometimes I wonder .... But when I've got wonderful people like you "holding me up" - yes, you do! - well, I do get a little glimmer of hope! Jonathan, thank you for your kind words - I wish I felt "strong" and "sturdy" - but maybe I'm in the state when others can see what I can't, so bless you for that!
Love you all, you're my lifeline at the moment - thank you so much!
Lots of love
Rose
xxxxx
Rose, Rose , Rose..You see how much you are loved?? It will be alright, it will! all will be well and back to "normal" soon. I and the rest of the gang on here know this feeling so well or we wouldn't be here at all. When you can't see your hand in front of your face....we will guide you.... Much Love and Hugs x Ella x
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