It's a vicious cycle. I spend every single day feeling sick with anxiety and being sick is also my biggest fear. I'm anxious about everything - I worry about every possible thing that somebody could worry about. I hate eating, it makes me feel sick. I hate going out. I hate working. I'm just so terrified about feeling or being sick in front of anybody. I'm depressed because no one understands or takes it seriously. My own parents don't really care. I feel like I have no friends. I dropped out of University last year because I just felt so isolated. There were so many excited 18-19 year olds but I just spent the whole time terrified that I would catch a stomach bug or see someone throw up if they were drinking and then there's this enormous pressure on young people to drink too - if you don't, you're made fun of and left out. I just want to enjoy my life now. I've had this phobia for as long as I can remember but it's been seriously effecting my day-to-day life for 2 years now.
On top of all this I have seriously low confidence and self esteem. I wasn't brought up very well (I won't go into that) but I just feel so helpless.