Well today's the day of the staff Christmas lunch! I had a rubbish sleep last night which i'm putting down to thinking about today.
I had an episode this morning but managed to over-come it. The worse part is that I am now sat around waiting, a horrible feeling keeps washing over me, I just hope I have the power to keep the full blown symptoms away.
By the time you read this it will probably all be over and done with ..........isn't it horrible to have that feeling of anticipation of an event, I always think it's like waiting to do your driving test or an interview. Most people feel a bit anxious and stressed in those situations but those with daily anxiety feel it over everything ......
Hope you can chill out a bit when it's all done and behind you and that it wasn't quite as bad as you feared.
PL
When I feel this way about an event I tell myself I wish the event arrives faster. Cos the faster it arrives, the faster it's over. So although it's difficult I make myself "look forward" to it so its over and I can breathe a sigh of relief. Give it a try. It changes your perception leading up to event and helps you get past it.
Hi Hun how dud it go? As u know I've got mine Fri and my anxiety is sky high I just want to get it over and done with so I can enjoy Xmas. Xxx
Hi, well I accomplished the dreaded party! I was so incredibly proud of myself but have now been faced with an annoyed husband as I was at the party and couldn't pick him up from work!!
I thought he'd be proud of me for going (when I had the chance to back out) and he did have warning that I might not be finished in time!
So after such an over whelming felling of realising i'd made it through, I was then faced with the dreaded anxious feelings again of an annoyed hubby!!
I am now feeling exhausted to be honest, but know I have accomplished a big milestone, compared to only days ago when I couldn't leave the house 
x
Yes you have accomplished something big .......and that is official
Did your husband know you would be at the party ?? Maybe there was a misunderstanding and he thought you would be still able to pick him up. He may be a little bit stressed too about one thing or another.
Anyway good job and well done !!!!! PL
Thank you! Yeah he knew that I might not be finished in time, but I know he is under a lot of stress right now. Its so hard dealing with my anxiety and understanding him too. I feel guilty on a daily basis as he hasn't had a day off in over a month and some days working 15 hours! And theres me, some days, not accomplishing a lot at all! But I am learning to not dwell on it too much as it drives me crazy! I try to do as much as I can x
The dreaded loneliness returns
That dreaded morning feeling!
Dreadful dying feeling in body
Back to work and dreading it :( :(
