Bipolar???? Depression and anxiety

[Georgiaelizallen]

Its fair to say my depression is getting the best of me I don't know what else I can do anymore. Its been years. My moods are sooo erratic, one minute ill be quite hyperactive and happy, the next ill want to end it all. Constant sinking feeling in my stomach, loss of appetite. Don't enjoy things anymore. My doctor told me I have symptoms of BPD but they don't want it on my record as it will effect jobs for me in the future, so im unsure? I havent got the slightest clue what else is wrong with me how can I focus on treating an illness if I don't know what it is im literally laid here crying my eyes out guys, I have no motivation to do anything, I feel awful. Anybody have any advice or tips? Im suicidal, im not myself. Sometimes I feel like I'm not in control of my own body/thoughts either and its terrifying. Love always x

[Hidden]

Call a doctor or a suicide hotline I do not think you should let those feelings linger

[Georgiaelizallen in reply to Hidden]

I am okay Thank you. There's a difference with feeling suicidal and actually acting upon it. I've talked to a few people and they've helped me.

[Georgiaelizallen in reply to Georgiaelizallen]

I just wanted some advice x

[Hidden in reply to Georgiaelizallen]

I am glad. I just wanted to help if I could. I am glad you have people to talk to it is important. I have not myself been so lucky at times.

[Georgiaelizallen]

Spreading lots of love and light your way. You're stronger than you think.

[Clurking]

Borderline personality disorder look it up on mind.org.uk. I was told I had this too.