Hi Everyone, I'm not out for sympathy but support please. I know some of you know me and I have spoken before about my son. For those of you that are new on the site I am a typical anxious// depressive// agoraphobic. I seem to trip along for a while , slipping here and there, or full fall flat on my face. Nothing much shocks me anymore and I am very friendly....but today I'm struggling with myself. My son has been in Rehab for the last 3 weeks and now he has come out . Obviously this hasn't worked as he has been drinking while in there and spent all his money on god knows what .He is 39 years old and scares the hell out of me. He has been violent before when he doesn't get his own way and just loses himself in drugs and drink. He has been everyday asking for money and I just don't have it and when he went in I resolved not to hand any money over. Food and shelter yes, money no. I can't??I live on DLA and they don't allow anymore than absolutely necessary, and that's a daily struggle. My family regard him as a joke! but it's my son! and I feel so responsible for him. My head is spinning with all this, and I know nobody can change it but him. I just need to get it out and stop feeling so guilty. I know I must stick to my guns and self preservation has kicked in. But I really dread that knock on the door. Anyone else had experience of this?
Love and hugs x Ella x