My first post

[mads4130]

I struggle with severe anxiety— the kind that isn’t just nerves or overthinking, but something that consumes me. I’m a junior in college, and I’ve had anxiety for as long as I can remember, but lately, it’s become unbearable. It feels like my brain is stuck in survival mode, like I’m constantly running from something that isn’t there.

From the moment I wake up, there’s this pit in my stomach— heavy, gnawing, unshakable. Lying still feels impossible. My body won’t let me relax. It follows me through the day, this looming, relentless fear, as if at any moment, something terrible is about to happen. My heart pounds out of nowhere, sometimes 10, 20 times a day. My hands shake. I lose track of time. It’s like my body is screaming that I’m in danger, but there’s no danger— just me, trapped inside my own mind.

I try to stay busy because doing nothing feels unbearable. Basketball, friends, anything to distract myself. But even in those moments, anxiety lingers. I go to therapy twice a week. I take Prozac. But when the anxiety really takes over, I go completely mute. I pace my apartment, back and forth, unable to stop. I call my sister just to hear a voice that reminds me I’m not alone.

I’m not depressed. I love my friends, I stay active, I try to live my life. But this feeling— this overwhelming, suffocating sense of doom— is exhausting. It hijacks my sleep. Some days, I can’t eat at all because my stomach is in knots. Other times, I catch myself shaking just sitting still. Even in class, I can’t just sit and listen— I’m glued to the NYT crossword, just to keep my mind from spiraling.

I feel like I’m drowning in my own thoughts, and no one can see it. People just see how anxious I am, but they don’t get it. I just want to know— is there anyone else out there who feels this way? Am I really alone in this?

[Jameshuh]

No you are far from alone. There a millions of us around the world. Here is the information I wish someone had handed me when I was 20 drharrybarry.com/resources/ . Wishing you peace and health.

[mads4130 in reply to Jameshuh]

This is so amazing thank you so much. I'm going to watch all his videos

[Jameshuh in reply to mads4130]

You are most welcome, it was a game changer in my understanding. Glad you find it useful. Pass it on to whoever needs it 😊

[Dixie9326]

You definitely need professional psychiatric help…seek it out , no one should have to live like that!😘

[mads4130 in reply to Dixie9326]

I have just received a referral to see a professional psychiatrist! Ill let you know how it goes

[Manonika]

I literally felt every word your writing except the prozac. I am in school and work as much as possible. I struggle in school doing simple courses. Even though I already graduated with a Degree in education. I at one point was able to work 2 jobs and complete a certification. While taking care of an acreage and helping parent. I have trouble eating, sleeping and making plans with people outside of my job. I have trouble eating and sleeping. My mind won’t stop racing and I don’t know why.

[mads4130 in reply to Manonika]

Wow, we r literally the same. Today I met back up with my doctor and she is putting me on Wellbutrin and hydroxyzine, I hope this helps. Have you tried any medications yet? Prozac wasn't bad it just wasn't enough. I didn't enjoy zoloft, but many people have. Have u had luck with any?

[Manonika in reply to mads4130]

I’m just on Escitalopram, but therapist suggested I talk to doctor and look at a mood stabilizer or something else