Depersonalization & Anxiety opinions/help?

[misfitt]

(I posted this tree or four days ago)

Does anyone else feel like they’re not real? Like, everything is a dream or looks funny? About a month ago something triggered my anxiety and it hasn’t went away since. I dropped out of my senior year of high school because of this and it’s been making me depressed. I’m on Paxil. I have been for at least three weeks and everyone tells me they won’t really start working for about a month or longer. I’m tired of living like this, it’s not like me to stay home. I’ve always had tiny forms of anxiety but it’s never been this bad. I constantly think that there’s going to be LSD in anything that I eat or drink and I know that sounds crazy but I can’t help it. It’s driving me crazy constantly thinking I’m going to go on some big trip when in reality I’m not and I know that far back into my mind. But I start convincing myself that it’s going to happen and my mind starts playing tricks on me.

This morning I woke up and I felt dizzy and I couldn’t really walk. It’s like my body felt dizzy but in my eyes everything was normal. I just need info and tips on all of this. Does anyone else do this? Or have stupid fears they cling to when they’re dealing with anxiety? I’ve done lots of research on my symptoms but I want to know if someone else feels the same way I do.

(Now)

All of the paranoia started when I had a bad dream that I took the drug. I had started Paxil and it had made it a little bit better, but after the dream things got very bad. I’m feeling better than I did when I wrote the first question but not a lot. I’m thinking this has something to do with the Paxil. I’ve been really really depressed and sick to my stomach, and I have to make myself throw up for my stomach to feel better which I hate doing. I hadn’t ate for three days before yesterday and I had a few small things. It seems as if my anxiety calms down later into the night which I’m not sure about? I take my Paxil 10mg at 4 pm every day but I can’t seem to think that the Paxil is what’s making me feel this way. I feel extremely bad when I wake up in the mornings, it’s like a mixture between sad and anxious. Does anyone else do this? My gut is telling me to just quit the medicine cold turkey but I’m not sure if I should.

When I was 13 I smoked a lot of weed so when the depersonalization gets kind of bad it just feels like I’m high which I hate. I had a bad trip when I was 15 every since then the depersonalization has happened I just wasn’t sure what it was. I know it sounds silly but I just get so scared that I’m gonna trip out on the drug. It’s like it’s all I can think about. It’s making me depressed. Can anyone else relate to this? Me and my boyfriend talked and he looked it up and aparantly I have agoraphobia? I’m not sure, I just don’t know what else to do, and if I repeated anything in this I apologize, I know this post is like scattered.

I really liked the Paxil at first but I haven’t been on it for the 4-6 week mark yet, maybe it’ll start helping? My mom or boyfriend doesn’t seem to think it is. I also have visual snow and sometimes a ringing in my ears. I’d love to here your thoughts or opinions but please respect my wishes when replying.

(Also when you reply I really would appreciate not hearing about your experience with this drug or any other drug I’d rather not think about it. And I know it sounds really silly but I’ll eat something and lay in bed and convince myself that I’m going to start tripping when in reality I know I wont)

[SammieXo]

Hey I went through exactly the same thing when I was 18 had a very bad trip and have always been anxious since. I got that that I gave up on my job and couldnt leave the house for 6months and it was a struggle. I was that paranoid i used to think i could smell weed every were i went which made me really anxious. I got prescribed citalopram and it did help but at the beginning it was hard as i had loads of side effects. Its been 11 years and I am still an anxious person. You have to find a way to relax and not think so much negitive things find a hobby something you enjoy doing with friends might be a good idea to see a therapist too xx

[misfitt]

I was seeing a therapist in my school, she was an actual therapist too. She had no association with the school. But I’ve dropped out, so I don’t know where to start. I really trusted her. But thank you, I hope you find peace in your mind ❤️

[kevoreally in reply to misfitt]

Why dont you see if you can still goto her? Be like look i really trusted you and I had to drop out can I like pay you on the side lmao

[misfitt in reply to kevoreally]

I don’t even feel like leaving my house lol but I’d rather stay away from that place because everyone will just ask questions

[kevoreally in reply to misfitt]

I dropped out of school too went back to bmx over there on my bike i let the questions come and I said "college is overrated" id rather put my time and money that will actually benefit me.. life is about connections college is just to score you based on societys standards.. every job you take will TRAIN you regardless of school or not your gonna be that RECRUIT LEVEL no matter what..

is rather do trade school then college because with a trade you actually get where you are aiming for.. college the biggest joke of em all you have yo take mad classes that were IRRELEVANT to your actual goal.. why?! What good does that do but increase debt for me..

any way screw what they say if that women or man helped you i say call the school and request to speak with her dont give them anything unless they ask.. if they ask you whos asking say your name and say you were a student and its important to speak with her or him they should allow you to speak and see what she says maybe she knows a really good yheralist for you near your place you never know till you step foot into the door

[_EEF in reply to misfitt]

There is online therapy. You wouldn't have to leave the house! 🌹

[Anxious2befree]

The ringing in your ears is Tinitus and can't hurt you. To stop the ringing you need to listen to music but soft music so your brain focuses on the music and not the ringing and it will subside. I gave it but mine is pretty bad some nights or some days but it's caused from listening to music to loud or working in a very noisy environment. As for the drugs I don't know as I won't medicate as I have health anxiety and an allergic to allot of things. Stay strong you will get through it X

[Jmerrick22]

I know the exact feeling. It's very weird and confusing.

[_EEF]

Hi hope it was a happy thanksgiving. I relate to what you're going through. Is this the only med you're on? Do you regularly see a psych And a therapist? I would highly recommend that you do, explaining All of your symptoms, in my opinion, I'm not a Dr, you have bad anxiety that may being aggravated by the Paxil...

[Erinkatja]

Is there anyone else that you trust to talk to like your old school counselor? I know that when I go to my doctor with a million symptoms of things, since I’m always thinking it is something serious.. I feel like he is being judgmental and rude. Kind of like it’s anxiety get over it. UNTIL I went to the PHysicians assistant and I told her again everything that kept happening to me and she told me about her anxiety which was actually really comforting to me to know the person I’m seeing knows how I feel somewhat. Get more than one opinion. Maybe the medicine isn’t working for you, maybe there is a better option for you. You already know this, but you’re not going to trip. Try to take comfort knowing that you did not take anything that would make you feel that way again. Did you feel better worse or the same after taking your meds?

[misfitt in reply to Erinkatja]

The medicine made me feel a little better, but I had a dream that I did take that drug and ever since things have been downhill.