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I don’t know what to do anymore, I feel so ill all the time. Doctors don’t believe me and I feel like there’s more to this than just anxiety. If you have time to read this and tell me what you think?
I’ve always suffered with anxiety, as a kid it affected me daily, then I had a few years when I was about 18 anxiety free. I started with loads of symptoms and after years I finally got diagnosed with endometriosis. Had surgery and later got pregnant.
After a traumatic labour I came home and felt more wiped out than ever, I couldn’t stand without feeling like I was going to pass out and got hit with the worst anxiety I’ve ever had. I had trouble adjusting to being a mum.
Since then I feel energy less every day and at certain times in the month I feel like I have the flu, like blood is being pulled to the bottom of my body, dizzy when I stand and my heart rate feels like it’s going really slow but hard. I get bad stomach, find it hard to eat (although I do). I’m in pain often from endometriosis. I get sores all over my tongue and hair loss. I’ve had tests which have come bk normal apart from the odd test coming back with something insignificant to doctors. Feeling like this has made me depressed, I find it hard to function which has also made anxiety spiral out of control.
I know for at least nearly two years I’ve been in a constant state of panic and I know it can take it’s toll on my body. My doctor feels everything is down to anxiety but something tells me it’s not. I’ve had cbt etc, and I get how anxiety works and what I need to practice doing to retrain my mind but find it impossible to do when I constantly feel ill, my life is drastically changing. I don’t see my friends, I don’t feel capable of looking after my child and I’m seriously at the end.
I’m debating antidepressants to see if how I feel is all anxiety but can’t bring myself to take them, I’m petrified of them! I’ve got to do something though as I have to live and look after my child. This doesn’t feel like life, it feels like hell.
What would you do? Xxxx