The HE double toothpicks with it all

[Nothing_but_books]

Only so many times you can get your face pushed in before you get it. I'm sick. I'm hurt. I'm angry.

So fa la-la-la-la what.

What's the point of trying when it doesn't matter.

[Hidden]

Hello

Not sure what you have been going through but I can feel your pain and I to have been going through a lot of hurt , feeling let down , angry , everything you sound like you are feeling

Whats the point ? I ask myself the same question so many times to , the point though is whatever is causing you to feel this way don't let it win , you are worth more than that , everything can be worked through , feels hard , sometimes you don't know how but we will

Take Care x

[Nothing_but_books in reply to Hidden]

Okay. I heard you. But it already won.

[Hidden in reply to Nothing_but_books]

If you would like to talk we are here , we don't judge as we all know how this affects us , so you are safe to talk to us and tell us what is happening x

[Nothing_but_books in reply to Hidden]

I am not judging you.

God is judging me and I have been found wanting.

KABOOM

It's what I do. my best friend in the world has gotten rid of my strike three and you're out.

My husband called and said why don't i get it it's over

I come here to find a friend

KABOOM

iT'S ALL i do

I want to be banned and kicked out.

I can't take it anymore.

No more games.

[Hidden in reply to Nothing_but_books]

Hi

And take some deep breaths

Everything feels like it is going against you , you are feeling so low that you feel everyone is against you , yet they are not honestly , it is the nature of this beast anxiety/depression getting us under it's control

Friendships ....well I have had many so called best friends and then they have gone , it hurts I know but I have accepted this is what happens in life not just to me but to so many , sometimes when we take a step back the friendship gets back on track and space between people is what is needed , sometimes friendships don't come back but I put it down to life experience but first I have to work through those feelings of hurt , upset and rejection and it is tough and hurts !

Your husbands reaction is typical of most men as they see things differently

Not sure why you feel you are rejected on these sites ?

This is a quite site compared to he rest on here to why maybe there is only me answering but someone always does and one person caring is better than no one ?

You seem overwhelmed at the moment which is how we all get and then we press the self destruction button but try and do something to distract yourself from how you feel , to help stop your head going round and round with negative thoughts and day by day this will feel so much better even though you can't see it at the moment x

[Nothing_but_books in reply to Hidden]

i am not feeling rejected on this site I am feeling it is safer for me and the world that i am kicked out.

i - lower case lower case came lonely hurt broken sick

i found the best friend of my life

i failed and failed and failed and jumped all the hoops and failed

and did my best and failed

and got sick and did the best I knew how and failed

my husband is sick of me and asks if i don't want him to be happy not happy with me

I / stupid stupid worthless stupid / needed wanted a friend to be still alive

but i am not okay

want my husband back NO

overwhelmed by feelings for forum friend can't do anything right THATS NOT ALRIGHT

lonely lost stupid

NOW GOT what was always in the works what I always get

TURNED OFF KICKED OUT gone

my fault don't you see

forum is too close

I can't go away

I can't bear it here

kick me out

[Hidden in reply to Nothing_but_books]

You sound so upset

You are welcome here as much as any other member

Are there any helplines you could phone to talk to someone about how you are feeling ?

Sleep on all this , tomorrow things may seem so much better

We all mess up and we all have bad days but a new day can look so different x

[Nothing_but_books in reply to Hidden]

No. No near tomorrow will seem so much better.

I did not mess up.

I was human.

I have already been advised to go away until I'm better.

Another member says to keep reaching out.

Is that what I'm doing.

Here. Look if you want. That's me.

healthunlocked.com/anxiety-...

[mrmonk]

Sent you a private message.

[Want2BHappy3]

That’s how people treat those of us who suffer from anxiety and depression, they want to cure us. If you’re good with how your living, then do You and move on 🙏😷