I cant smoke cant drink cant eat I have had an absolute guts full. I am dehydrated gasping for a fag tired fed up messed my new laptop up plus it now costs a bomb to keep things up to scratch. Cant and will not go on like this. Really I feel there is someone watching over me taking the piss. Laughing and boy can I be a nutter when I kick off. Everyday there is something ready to smack me down. I am so thirsty right now. Got to get out and breath before I end up doing something insane.