Stable but not myself

[Mongea]

The past month I have felt pretty good- most of my anxiety is gone and I’m out there living life again. However, I can’t seem to shake this feeling of not being myself. While I’m thankful for the stability, it’s hard to accept that the way I feel is my new normal. I’m curious as to if this is others experience as well. I’m scheduled to start weaning off my Zoloft in July and while I’m nervous about going off I’m also excited to feel like myself again. Can anyone relate?

[Hidden]

Yes I relate, I’m feeling a lot better but still not myself. And I do wonder if I ever will be. I’ve been on antidepressants for 10 years or more don’t think that will change either. Wishing you well. 😀

[Kkimm]

Hi Mongea.

Is it still that detached feeling you were talking about or is it something else?

[Mongea in reply to Kkimm]

It’s kind of like that. Hard to put my finger on it. I really don’t feel like myself, it’s like I’m constantly checking internally to see if it’s really me in there. I know it sounds silly, but I don’t feel connected to myself.

[Wizardsmom]

I was hospitalized in December for depression and anxiety and I get what you mean. I feel better now but not quite myself. Like something is missing or something is different. I have been on antidepressants for 24 years and this new antidepressant seems to be helping the most....but still...

[pink83737]

Wow I relate to this so much!!

[Mongea in reply to pink83737]

What medication are you taking and are you accepting the way out feel or looking to change things to feel like yourself again?

[pink83737 in reply to Mongea]

I take Zoloft ability and welbutrin..I try to ignore the bad feelings

[Want2BHappy3]

Yes, after retiring early from my job over 2 years ago because of my anxiety, I found another PT job. I don't feel like myself like you said, not Happy at all. I'm taking medication, don't feel like it's working, my doctor changed my medication regardless of me telling her the one she newly prescribed me I had used before and that it didn't work. Changing her, she doesn't listen, think she's GOD?

[Mongea in reply to Want2BHappy3]

For me if seems to be the medication that has changed me. I’m doing all kinds of self care to ease my anxiety. Exercise, yoga, acupuncture.... my anxiety is basically gone but there’s an underlying feeling of restlessness. It’s hard to explain but I don’t feel connected to myself. I only started feeling this after the meds.

[Vectron]

Why come off your Antidepressants?

[Mongea in reply to Vectron]

I’m choosing to go off of them in July because I’ve been stable for almost six months and like I said in my post- I haven’t felt like myself since starting them. I’m ready to feel like me again.

[Vectron in reply to Mongea]

I understand I am in the U.K. Wellbutrin is not

Allowed to be prescribed, the most popular medication is Lexepro.

[Mongea in reply to Vectron]

I’m on Zoloft which is also called sertraline. I haven’t been impressed from the beginning... however I’m too scared to try something else. It was pretty brutal getting up on the right dose. I felt like I was going crazy.