Nervous :( need support!

Hey folks,

So I did start off today feeling odd from Zoloft but was mostly positive. I need a bit of reassurance.

I have been taking sick leave from work for the past month to work on my anxiety. NYC was a huge trigger because I associated it with my panic disorder, as that’s where it got bad from the stress. I’m planning on going back Monday, if my psychiatrist approves it.

I’m supposed to have a follow up neurology appt tomorrow in the city but thinking about going by myself makes me so nervous. I’m in Boston now, and need to really get my shit together.. I pride myself on being self sufficient but I’ve been needing to borrow money from my sister since I’ve been out of work and it feels horrible. Part of me wants the reassurance of going to to the neurologist even though she said I’m not having seizures and my MRI and nerve tests came back great.

Then I think of my psychiatrist appt on Wednesday and how she needs to sign off on me returning to work. I don’t want to go back to my job because it’s just not the environment I want and the people are negative. I’m SOO scared of spiraling back into my panic. I’m scared my agoraphobia will spiral back.

Lastly, I’m so scared still that I’m losing control or I’ll get schizophrenia, though my psychiatrist and psychotherapist say I won’t and I’m not. This fear is on and off and it makes me so hyper aware of everything. I seriously see something out of the corner of my eye and think it’s me seeing things and it’s terrifying. I’m tricking myself into being scared, but I don’t know how to break out of it.

Zoloft just makes me spacey and feel dreamlike and odd so I’m just piecing health anxiety fears together. What do I do?

I just wanna nap. I feel bummed and really need to make money again but the thought of going to NYC without my support system really scares me. I want to be brave again but I just feel so weird from Zoloft. Scared I won’t ever feel 100% again!

[Teggyherms]

You are doing so great! Just come to terms that all of this is a side effect and it will eventually pass!!!

[Hidden in reply to Teggyherms]

Thanks so much, my friend It feels so weird! I felt so much better after talking to you the other day!!

[Teggyherms in reply to Hidden]

It all really is the medication! They really can mess with your brain. You have to just roll with the punches. There is light at the end of the tunnel. You just have to get there!!!

[Hidden in reply to Teggyherms]

Thanks so much!! I’m trying! You seriously make me feel better

[Teggyherms in reply to Hidden]

You’re welcome! I just spew truth😉

[Laniben]

Youve done well.

I wish I could deal with anxiety better than I do, just had a day of feeling sick followed by a tension head and then the anxiety. The fear is really horrible.

[Hidden in reply to Laniben]

Omg you have my sympathies. I know how you feel and thank you for the encouragement.

How are you feeling now? Tension headache here, too, but from Zoloft.. feels like a rubber band is around my head! Hope you’re ok x

[Laniben in reply to Hidden]

Yes tight head, then the gagging in between, the Anxiety makes

Me fearful of going anywhere, my sleep pattern is all out and that doesn’t help, and the weakness in my arms

And legs after is horrible.

Thank you for the reply x

[Dperez1223]

I feel you but I think you can do it and you can always reach out to me

[Monkeypanda]

Hey,

I completely understand where you are coming from as i suffer every day with health anxiety & it sucks & i get extremly anxious when going out so i completely understand where you are coming from.

Just remember you have had every test done under the sun to say that you are fit & healthy & you need to tell yourself that.

You need to have confidence in yourself that you can do & achieve anything that you want to when you put your mind to it.

Don't let anyones negativity get in your way you are better than that. You just need to beleive in yourself.

You are not going mad its the anxiety that makes us feel like we are going mad.

Stay strong you can do this!

Always here to talk if you need me.

Xx

[anxiousgirl7]

Hey girl, Zoloft made me feel this way at first but it went away, then it really helped me! What dose are you on?