Off Zoloft day 18 / health anxiety

So I slept pretty good until I had a nightmare, and woke up very anxious! I breathed and the anxiety is still there. My mind is doing that thing again where it feels like it’s struggling to think because it feels blank? I hope that goes away... ugh. Is this the zombie feeling people talk about? Cuz I def feel anxious.. just like blank minded.

Getting ready for work now and doing my best to ignore the side effects.

I keep fearing psychosis. I need to get a grip that it’s not happening but everything just feels so weird still that I get so scared. Ugh. How does my therapist know I don’t have it? These are the questions I wonder. I keep getting scared I’ll look around and hallucinate.

Rainy day and I’ve got my backpack full of books and gym clothes... I plan on visiting my uncle on my lunch break at his new record shop. Gym after work, but I definitely wish I could sleep more! I’m so sleepy.

Time to take my b complex vitamins. I can’t remember if I wrote this, but my neurologist is pretty darn sure my b1 deficiency and folic acid contributed to my anxiety. What do you guys think? I didn’t have beriberi (but I thought I did lol) but it can apparently cause anxiety. I was also b12 and d deficient.

I get to see Anthony tomorrow!!! I’m so proud of myself for getting through this!

So here is my suspicion: Anytime I’m anxious or at random, the leftover chemicals from Zoloft ping into action, and it causes my mind to either go blank, depersonalize, it or.. just feel weird. Thinking about it makes me anxious, so the cycle continues. It happening out of nowhere is definitely what makes me think this, on top of those damn mood swings. I’ve seriously never felt depression or random anger (unless I was on birth control [for the anger]) in my life so when those waves hit.. it’s very very weird.

It really did help to have my roommate echo that she’s never seen me have mood swings in the past two years she’s known me, and as a fellow mental health survivor.

So yeah, sorry for the long post! I just don’t want to keep these thoughts here and stray from obsessively talking about them. ❤️❤️❤️❤️ love you all!

[SxufferingSxoul]

Hello there!

I used to be on Zoloft and have vitamin B deficiency just like you! Any anti-anxiety drug or SSRI drug like Zoloft causes anxiety in any form as a withdrawal symptom that usually passes away after about 3-6 months even less, you never know! I know that because a few days after I stopped Zoloft my anxiety came back worse in ever, all in physical symptoms. Just keep in mind that it’s usually not recommended to take Vitamin B supplements when you’re on zoloft as I was told once. You’re not alone, I know these panic attacks are horrifying, but note that you always ended up fine afterwards. Trust me, if it was a disease, these symptoms would never get better without medication for that disease. You will be fine, I promise xx hope everything gets better soon! Try distracting yourself with things you love doing when you sense a panic attack coming.

Have a hug from me xx

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Oh wow!!! Nobody told me I couldn’t take the b complex.. crap! I had been the whole time. Do you know why? Is it ok that I do now?

Thank you SO much. You made me feel so much better!!

[SxufferingSxoul in reply to Hidden]

I heard that it just interacts with vitamin B and causes more physical symptoms, that’s all I know of. You can take it now though, you should be fine. You’re more than welcome, message me if you need to! Keep me updated

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Withdrawal symptoms are quite torture, I know what it’s like! Especially when you’re not on another SSRI drug. I believe you can fight it all, you’re pretty strong since you managed to get through these panic attacks! I stopped taking Cymbalta (SNRI drug) and it’s causing me awful withdrawal symptoms aka anxiety physical symptoms that are quite similar to yours! Along with cardiac symptoms.

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I’m hoping this is withdrawal! It came out of nowhere. Yes, this week was a lot to take in but.. I dunno. It seems unnatural for it to be like this.

Thank you so much for your positivity! I’m doing as much as I can and more! I’m forcing myself to the gym so I can fight this crap back. I want to beat it!! Thank you so much!

[SxufferingSxoul in reply to Hidden]

I have high hopes for you, I know you can beat it! Exercise has been proven to be one of the best ways to relieve stress and anxiety. Just know that if you managed to get through the panic attacks then you will be able to get through these symptoms! Funny thing is that my physical symptoms started worsening this year every time I went for a simple walk, I don’t know if it’s exercise-induced anxiety or a lung disease. Since then I avoided exercising and just decided to stick with drawing since I’m pretty good at it

[SxufferingSxoul]

One more thing! Vitamin B deficiency causes anxiety in pretty bad forms, in some cases it causes people to not only get physical symptoms but even see and hear things that aren’t even there.

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Wow I didn’t know that. That’s crazy!!

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Oh, and is it for b1? Or b12? Or all b vitamins?

[SxufferingSxoul in reply to Hidden]

I’m pretty sure it’s all forms of Vitamin B, vitamin B1 deficiency causes blurry vision too which is something you have been complaining of? All vitamin b deficiencies cause anxiety, vitamin b12 causes more psychiatric symptoms tho

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Very interesting! Yeah, it’s been almost 2 months on the b vitamins. But the blurriness happened a LOT from Zoloft. And sometimes from looking at my phone too long. I got it looked at and they said it was dry eye, a Zoloft side effect.. but yes, my neurologist suspects the b vitamins contribute to my anxiety because of how deficient I was

[SxufferingSxoul in reply to Hidden]

Yeah Zoloft as well causes blurriness, my mom is on Zoloft and went through a month of hell due to scary physical symptoms in her eyes, such as blurriness, discomfort, and lots more, that worsened when she used her phone. The doctor said that there was nothing wrong with her eyes. But that went away, so I’m pretty sure your symptoms will go away eventually! I’m quite deficient as well lmao, I have been prescribed with alot of vitamin b injections but at the time I refused to as I used to have a phobia of needles. I got over that phobia now. Keep in mind that vitamin b deficiency can also gang up with Zoloft and make the blurriness worse, but it will go away soon I promise c:

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Oh your poor mum!!! I hope she’s ok! Thank you so much for the reassurance. I’m gonna keep beating this!

I so appreciate your help ❤️❤️❤️❤️

[SxufferingSxoul in reply to Hidden]

Awh thanks, she is okay now and I am more than glad to help ❤️❤️❤️ Keep me updated?

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I will!! And you too?

[SxufferingSxoul in reply to Hidden]

I will be sure to