Anxiety and Depression

[maxout12001]

I'm 67 years old, I have always had anxiety and depression...4 months ago lost my husband suddenly, 3 weeks later my 14 year old grandson past, who was in hospice care, had time to prepare for his passing but still was very hard...after a month and a half, shock wore off and severe depression and acute anxiety kicked in...have been on cymbalta, wellbutrin and xanax...was put on buspar, 10 mgs at night for 1 month, then increased to 30 mgs, 10 mgs in the morning, 20 mgs at night..not feeling really feeling the way I want to feel..called my doctor, she said it would get worse before it gets better...has anyone been told this...how can I feel any worse than I do now..I was told I have PTSD due to the trauma I experienced

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i would just listen to yourself...have you thought of getting a second opinion..

[Ragdoll15]

I am so sorry to read about the people in your life that you have recently lost. It must be so hard coping with anything like this, no wonder you have been diagnosed with PTSD.

You say you have always suffered with anxiety and depression so It appears that the anxiety and depression increased greatly after your losses thus turning into PTSD. Is buspar an antidepressant or an ant-anxiety med. I am in the UK and I don't think we have it here. I think apart from the medication you should havesome type of talking therapy, if you are not already receiving it, as this would help with your grief. Antidepressants do take awhile to kick in and doctors here often give anti anxiety med temporarily to cope with side effects.

I do hope you find the help that you need and to be able to get on with your life. We never forget our lost love ones but I am sure they would want us to be happy.

In sure many here will be able to give you good advise.

Take care x

[maxout12001 in reply to Ragdoll15]

It's an anti anxiety

[Agora1]

maxout, I am truly sorry for the loss of both your husband and grandson. The medications you are on are only going to numb the pain a little. It will be " time"

that will get you through your grieving process. If possible, I would suggest

getting some grief therapy with a professional who can guide you into healing.

It is never easy to know what to say or do except we will be here to comfort

and care. xx

[maxout12001 in reply to Agora1]

I am going to therapy ..

[Agora1 in reply to maxout12001]

xx

[Oneseedatatime]

maxout1200,

I am so sorry for your loss. Hopefully you have a heart full of priceless memories with both that you lean onto for strength and joy. Engaging in therapy in conjunction with the RX would be most effective. Nutrition also plays a key role in our mental health so perhaps consulting with a nutritionist could be of benefit too. I am currently reading a book with my clients titled The Food Mood Solution and it is shedding light for many of my clients who experience issues such as yours and they are learning to decrease their symptoms by making simple dietary adjustments.

Nothing can replace your loss nor fill the voids but ask yourself what your husband would have you do. What would he say to you to cheer you up? What would you say to him if you saw him mourning you and your grandson?