Anxiety = depression

[Hateanxiety]

Hi guys,well my anxiety desided it wants to stick around. I'm trying my hardest to deal with it but somedays it feels so much harder. I have got to the point I am so scared I will get worse,at night all I do is sit and cry. I cry for how I am,I cry for what I use to be, I cry for putting my husband through all of this. Its like I'm grieving the life I use to have before all the anxiety started. I keep replaying in my head the times I use to eat without feel of choking,times I laughed with my kids, acted goofy to make people happy,enjoyed going out shopping or to restaurants. It feels like all of that is behind me forever,growing up my biological mother was sent to a mental institution,then the lady that raised me had mental issues herself. I am so scared I will end up like them. I pray not to because I have two beautiful children I love dearly and want to be with. I have a husband whom tells me I am nothing like those women nor will I be,he tries so hard to tell me I will get my life back in order but I'm losing hope.