Things will be different this time

Mentally im doing better, i made a list a week ago, before the end of this year i plan to go back to school, my dog's training to become a service dog start in a few days, i have been walking even further from home now, yes i still have these attacks but i try my best not to be afraid of them.

I have big plans I'm too young to let my generalized anxiety and agoraphobia keep me locked up in chains. So yeah i have big plans for this year and if by the end of the year i don't succeed...... i will definitely take my own life and this time i will succeed

[Agora1]

Wait a minute sweetheart...It was all good until the last sentence. I don't want to hear that.

You have so much potential, so much to live for. xx You are so loved by everyone.

[Hidden in reply to Agora1]

I refuse to spend another year locked in Agora. I thought about it and this is the perfect plan Agora

[Agora1 in reply to Hidden]

GAD and Agoraphobia do not warrant calling it quits... Giving up is never an option. If you have learned anything from the forum, you know that it is more than possible to rid yourself of anxiety and walk away from the chains...

[Hidden in reply to Agora1]

I don't see it as giving up, ill see it as i tried my best and failed

[Agora1 in reply to Hidden]

Not quite the same dear. Yes you tried your best and may not have succeeded the first time. So you brush yourself off, psych yourself up and start over again. Challenges are meant to be won. xx

[Starrlight in reply to Hidden]

I bet you will succeed but even in trying it is succeeding because it is not giving up.

[Hidden in reply to Starrlight]

I will definitely work hard to succeed before December

[kevoreally in reply to Hidden]

Only you can make the difference. You need to WANT IT you cannot just speak of a plan you must commit to the plan as if it was a religion to you. You must put all your attention on it and not make your goals so high where they become unachieveable which makes our motivation decrease due to this “failure” if people like this post your only supporting suicide and I refuse to support such acts.. We must set reasonable goals and thus we an aquire motivation instead of saying by the end of the year I want to be “cured” say before the end of the week I want to be able to make it to and from the store by myself and do little bit at a time. If we say we wanna be or do something before our minds and body are even ready we will never succeed. Just not possibly to be “cured” its possible to be able to HANDLE or MAINTAINE the anxiety itself.

One step for big man not one big leap.

Plan a schedule

Do more than you did the day before.

And please remove the last sentence of your post..

[Agora1 in reply to kevoreally]

Thanks for your input kev..

[Hidden in reply to kevoreally]

Very well said kevoreally , it is only us that can make ourselves better and we have to work at it, it's not easy but nothing in life is that easy. I have Emetophobia and I know it's not going to beat me; believe you me there have been times when I have thought that it would be much easier if I wasn't here then I wouldn't have to worry about it but I am going to be cured and I am prepared to work at it.

I bought a book called 'The Thrive Programme' and the book is brilliant and I have worked my way through it once and started it again as the Author suggests; he said to go through the exercises again that are in the book. I came a bit stuck but I haven't given up as I will now be seeing a Therapist for CBT and am taking my book along with me, I know it will work and know I will have to work hard at it but life is worth it, we have to be kind to ourselves.

Once again, well done on your reply.

[Hidden in reply to kevoreally]

That is exactly what i have been doing since i got out the hospital put all my focus and effort into achieving this.

[melbrown]

My beautiful Sunflower, I believe with all my heart you can reach your goals. Felt like a proud big sister reading your post.... please please don't do you last line 😢. Your family & plenty people here love you so much. Spidey is going to be a rockstar at school, & you are already awesome. You are a fighter, when you fall down, we get back up, because we are stronger than this. I love you Danielle.

[Hidden in reply to melbrown]

Mel 🌻🌻 im putting 110% on getting better i have high expectations from myself this time around its now or never

[Hidden]

You can't call quits, think about your family you can't just put a timeline on your life

[jennylove12]

I was locked up in my home for nearly 9 years. I have been able to overcome agoraphobia. I thought seriously about suicide cos I couldn’t stand it anymore, then I realised I am better then that and I can achieve anything if I put my mind to it. Suicide = failure, you Danielle are no failure. Never ever give up.

You can do it.

[Hidden in reply to jennylove12]

Soundslike you know exactly what's its like to be locked in, i can't do this anymore that's not living only existing

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

It is only existing but you will live again. Never lose hope, it will happen for you.

[Hidden]

You will succeed Danielle. Failure is not failure unless you give up. God loves you and is with you at all times. You are getting better, do not let doubt sneak in. You are on your way to restoration and wholeness. You are loved and I am praying for you and everyone struggling in these areas. I was thinking about you. I am praying every day and I will continue to pray with the prayers and support of others. I have heard many say prayer works and I believe it does. Stay strong!

[Hidden]

The last part of your message was not a plan. Choose God’s plan, for he says, “I know the plans that I have for you, they are for good and not for evil, plans to give you a future and do you no harm.

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Thanks for your prayers hun 💙 . I am getting better, a lot of great things can happen before the end of the year

[SpeaktheTruth]

Sometimes you have to modify your plan. That’s a good thing. The important thing is that you keep striving to reach your goal. Don’t do something so permanent if you don’t reach your goal, just regroup and refocus on your plan and work hard to make your plan happen. Sometimes things come up...you might have a set back or something out of your control could come up that keeps you from your goal. Just keep fighting towards it and you will get there. Setting a time deadline is just an arbitrary number.

[Hidden in reply to SpeaktheTruth]

I have failed to many times to count yet i kept going. This time im putting my all in it i just made a tiny little change in case i fail.

[Hidden]

Hidden , I have had Emetophobia for a long time and recently it's been really bad but I refuse to give up - I'm not giving up as life is worth more than that.

I bought a book called 'The Thrive Programme' and the book is brilliant and I have worked my way through it once and started it again as the Author suggests; he said to go through the exercises again that are in the book. I came a bit stuck but I haven't given up as I will now be seeing a Therapist for CBT and am taking my book along with me, I know it will work and know I will have to work hard at it but life is worth it, we have to be kind to ourselves.

We can't give up, we just need to work hard and it will reap it's rewards.

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

I am working hard, trust me i am

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

I'm glad you are, you can't give up, life is worth fighting for as are your friends and family.

Take care x

[Hidden]

So im guessing all these weeks your mom spent by your bed in the hospital praying that you would survive, all her tears meant nothing now you had to make matters worse by giving yourself a deadline

[Hidden]

I thought about you this morning. I omitted telling you that I once a long long time ago had feelings like you. So glad I chose God’s plan. I use to get emotionally crippled in social situations. It is so so much better now. I would start with calling on God then stop, start again then stop. But even though I stopped God never left me. He kept me from harm and has given me a beautiful family. I am glad I am here and glad that I get a chance each day to make a difference in other peoples lives and that I have the strength to work out my healing. Things will be different, because you will hear the voice of the Lord calling you out of your pain and frustration to healing, wholeness and joy. Have a great day.

[Hidden]

We need to talk about this. Love you