I had 4 years of debiliating anxiety- form 2010 to 2014. Then was good for about 3 years. Feeling well again, feeling happy and hopeful and now, since my anxiety has come back since September, I am just so terrified that this is my life. I thought I was healed/cured/passed all that. The thing is that, before it was anxiety and I knew that and I wasn't afraid that it was anything more. Now, this time around, even though the symptoms are less severe, I am simply terrified that I will lose my mind, go crazy, develop depression and kill myself. NOTE: I do not want to kill myself but I've developed a phobia of doing so and that makes the anxiety worse!!