Sudden surgery - terrified

I have been in and out of my GP's office since well before Christmas, as I have had so much abdominal pain, nausea, diarrhoea, cramping etc. I also had sciatica, lower back pain, and pain going down the front of my leg. I have suffered on and off from anxiety since as far back as I can remember, and had severe anxiety which culminated in months of agoraphobia after the birth of my first child. My GP put all my symptoms down to anxiety, which made me worse as I though I would never be able to beat my panicky feelings and live a normal life. Eventually, I managed to get her to agree to send me for a gastroscopy and colonoscopy, which I had last week. The scopes showed up gastritis and some harmless polyps, but an ultrasound showed a large 14 x 14 cm tumour on my ovary. I am now facing into major abdominal surgery on Friday and I am terrified. My old GP used to give me xanax to be taken when needed which had been my lifeline since my marriage ended in 2011. My new GP is refusing to give me any as she says they are addictive. Is there anything else I can do to stop this terror I am feeling? I had a hysterectomy in 2011 also, and I have never known anxiety like it. I spent the entire week in hospital in a state of terror, and I really know I can't face it again. I am having my old scar opened up, my cervix, ovaries, and fallopian tubes removed along with the tumour, and I will be in hospital for a week. The feeling of being trapped with all those tubes in me is unbearable to think about. Can anyone help, please xx

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Bless you.

I think if you go to go and explain how you are feeling ,just as in your post here,

And tell your GOP you need help with your anxiety and you want some xanex temporarily your go will give them to you and if he or she doesn't see another gp at the surgery but I'm sure they will give you.

Good luck with your upcoming opp and I think you've been here before with the week in hosp you survived it once so I know you can survive it again ,I think you are far stronger than I and than you think.

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Thanks, Callumlee, I'm having my pre-op on Monday so I can ask them then. For now, I'm trying to put it out of my mind and just trust that they know what they're doing and look forward to recovery. It's not always easy though.

[Jeff1943]

Dedah, you have access to the most advanced and up-to-dare medical facilities in the world, give thanks for that and be reassured by it. Having this operation is likely to relieve you of the bad symptoms you've suffered from or at least most of them. So look at it positively, nobody likes having an operation but this will leave you feeling a lot better. Think of it as setting yourself up for life. You will come through this with flying colours, believe me, nothing bad is going to happen, you are in good hands. Don't rush back to your work afterwards, give your body time to recover, you will need time to recouperate. So there is nothing to fear, Dedah, all will be well, I know it.

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Thanks, Jeff. I'm trying to look at it like that. I got some meditations from my sister, and I'm trying to think ahead to getting better, and hopefully feeling a lot better after I come through it.

[Vbee in reply to Hidden]

Demand xanax or ask for valium - diazepam - same family of drugs will do the same thingm