I was driving home from college one day and suddendly i felt sooo weird. I almsot felt like i was high on drugs but i was sober. I called my boyfriend freaking out and he tried to calm me down. I ended up going home and felt ok but still off... For the past 4 months after this i have just felt odd. Not myself. Very very negative thoughts and it doesnt look like me when i look in the mirror, aswell people around me look like strangers but i know there not.... Its hard to explain! Sometimes i feel like im in a cartoon. I just dont feel like im here. I know i am but i dont feel present. Does anyone know what this is? Ive come to the conclusion that i think its depersonlization, although i have never experianced an out of body experiance but i do feel like a stranger when i look in the mirror. Ive gone to my doctor and he didnt know what i meant when i said i feel deatched and off. Ive tried 2 medications both which did not help. I need some sort of advice or something. I have quit my job due to this and i basically sit in my room depressed. I am returning to college in september and i fear i wont get through it.....
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What you are describing is maybe you feel that maybe you are on another planet or you are in a void.
It seems a shame you have given up your job it could be just stress or fear of the unknown.
Medication does not help. This feeling will pass you need time to rest and do not worry.
Have you lost anyone dear or close to you that has died suddenly?
Only asking as This is how I was when my parents died I felt so lost and alone they were people around me but I was not there I was looking down or around at them I did not recognise them and I did not know their names it was like I was an alien. GPs did not understand said I was dealing with breavement.
Thanks for the reply... No i have not lost anyone. But i have dealt with alot in life. Very depressed times where i felt alone. I am not sure what triggered this. I thought maybe stress from exams in college but 4 months later i still feel odd.
Stress from exams being around alot of people at college then suddenly by yourself no wonder you feel odd. Facing the outside world is a new ball game meeting new people learning new skills, going to new places its a shake up to your system some people can deal with it like a new adventure of which it is looking forward to something new and others hold back wondering what is happening a new life, fear of the unknown and the mind says "Hey slow down I cant take the pace"
It is natural for you to feel this way there are many pitfalls in life we have to face but it is how we over come them that matters.
Life is a whole new learning curve. We never stop learning even at the age of 64 I am still learning new skills and I myself have had to deal with many traumatic issues so I can relate to how you feel.
Your mind needs to rest and you need to relax to unwind this is why you are feeling this way. Try writing the journal as I suggested it helped me a great deal when I was feeling weird and no one understood me.
I had voices in my head that I could not repeat to others cos I could not remember the conversations so the only way was to write it down otherwise I could not get to sleep. I then went on to do poetry about everyday life and talking to a friend in work they also wrote poetry which she made into a yearly calender with illustrations.
I still have my journals from 30yrs ago they have given me happy times.
Sometimes I would write not really understanding what I had written til the next day I would read what was on my pad and I would feel at ease.
The way you are feeling will not pass overnight it could take a few days or weeks so please do not get depressed it is your healing time ready for new things to come into your life.
Sitting in your room will only make you more depressed.
You need your friends around you tell them if you think they will understand if not ask your GP for you to speak to a Counsellor you can talk to them about anything do not be afraid you may feel this is very strange but I have known many who have had this feeling.
You say you are going back to college in Sept. It sounds to me this is stress related.
You need to relax and do things you enjoy doing to relax the mind go for a walk in the fresh air go to the park or seaside be with your friends please do not worry.
Write a daily journal in a notepad of all the things that are troubling you these things need to be released from your mind and for you to have a good nights sleep.
Keep your journal by your bed side and always Ask for Gods help if you need an answer to something that is troubling you. Prayer is a powerful thing when we feel so low or need help. You can pray anytime day or night 24hrs but always say thankyou at the end.
You may not get your answer straight away it maybe days later when listening to the radio the words could be in a song or a few words that are said they could relate to you and only you will know these words are for you.
I hope this is of some help to you.
Get help with docs, meds, counseling. I felt like that right before my break with reality and hospitalization but had gone through recent tragedy and flashbacks from sexual abuse. I'm not saying you're going to break but I ignored all the signs, the voices, the repetition in my thoughts etc. Then one day my family called the cops to come get me because they said I wasn't right. Don't ignore it. Sometimes stress takes over and you can't control it from there. Seek treatment now is my advice.
Yes if you feel you are losing the battle to fight the way you are feel please speak to your GP as you could be near to having a breakdown through stress.
They will certainly give you tablets which will certainly make you tired and sleep but they will not solve the problem. However if any medication does not make you feel well again then please go back and tell them many do not work straight away and take about 8weeks before you feel any benefit.
I was on Prosac for 2yrs and gradually weaned myself off by gradually reducing the tablets so instead of one a day it would be one every other day until I was down to one tablet a week until there was none. It had to be done gradually as when I stopped the tablets all together I was not me and came down with a bump. So I was put back on them for 3 months then gradually weaned off. Now I only take painkillers for a lifetime disease I have.
Yes... unfortunately I know this too well and been suffering from this hell depersonalization/derealization for 5 months now. It's horrific and hell. And yes, it feels like a real bad drug trip minus the drugs. For me it started off by fighting some weird soul leaving body dream feel attack then the rest is a nightmare. Feeling like I'm a dream all day, people and surroundings seem unfamiliar when they aren't. You wonder what you are,earth, humans, can't recognize yourself in the mirror,hyper awareness of existence and so on. I could go on for days. The only advice I can give you is to try your best to continue your daily routine without giving this hell much attention and trust me I know it's hard. The weird thoughts are finally fading for me but it did take time (about 4 months)Time is what's going to help us get better. And if you feel like you can't take it anymore then go to the doctors and they probably will give you some anxiety medication. Also you can start taking some supplements like magnesium, omega, a good multi vitamin, and so on. I'm here if you need to talk.
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Is they anything i havnt tried
I dont WANT anything anymore. Im kinda done.
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