Am I the only one??

[arymichele]

So today I was talking to my dad about some of the things I've been going through and what's been running through my head (or better known what my anxiety has been thinking lol) he thought I was saying I want to kill myself or have been thinking of that. What I guess I didn't explain correctly is that my anxiety of dying is so bad sometimes I fear of my anxiety turning into a deep depression that then will turn into suicidal thoughts. You know the "typical tail-spin" of thoughts building on worse thoughts (aka anxiety) 😩 I thought I'd take a try on explaining my thoughts to people going through similar things...am I crazy?! Or does my point make sense to anyone else..

thank you guys! ❤️

[Mrsamsouth]

Totally makes sense i worry all the time and now i have been give anti depressants and I'm scared to take them because of the side effects and i don't want to lose control and they said they can make you have suicidal thoughts and i don't want that at all

[arymichele in reply to Mrsamsouth]

I understand that worry. I've actually been on anti depressants for about 2 years, and I've never had that side effect from them. If I were to give u any advice, I guess u should really just out way the cost and benefits. If your anxiety is so bad that u can't do anything and you've tried everything else and nothing else has worked, look at trying medication as a possibility for better quality of life! But then again if there's things I haven't tried yet and if your anxiety is controllable right now, don't go into something that will just make your anxiety worse. But most of all TRUST YOUR DOCTORS! There's little to no reason to fight their opinions.

[Mrsamsouth in reply to arymichele]

Haven't tried any other anti depressants or anything, this is the first thing has given me and it's Amitriptyline tablets

[arymichele in reply to Mrsamsouth]

Haven't heard of that specific one, there's so many out there on the market. By law though ANY medication had to list ALL possible side effects (even if it only happen to a few people)...don't fear something that has an extremely low probability of happening. We're here for you!

[Mrsamsouth in reply to arymichele]

Thank you, I'm only 22 so finding it difficult at the moment. Hope you doing ok

[arymichele in reply to Mrsamsouth]

I hear ya, I'm only 22 also and I've been on medication since like 19. I would love to start tapering off soon, but unfortunately my anxiety has been to intense lately for me to do that. Stay strong!

[Mrsamsouth in reply to arymichele]

Stay strong too, i have just took my first tablet so waiting to see how it goes but my head is really hurting right now, not sure if it's from the stress and anxiety of worrying or what it is

[Jeff1943]

Mrsamsouth, amitriptyline are good anti depressents, I was on them for many years, they increase levels if the happy hormone serotonin and they are very safe as they've been around since the 1960s so all the side effects are known and that comes down to just making you a bit sleepy and waking up with a dry mouth, a small price to pay for feeling normal. They went out of popularity for a while when prozac was all the rage but they've made a comeback because they are so safe and freevir major side effects.

I know nobody wants to be on meds for ever but they allowed me to continue to function and work and support my family. But use the break from anxiety and depression to plan your recover using self help techniques (like Claire Weekes' Acceptance method) and when you come off them taper them off very slowly. I was on 75mg a day to start but then come down to a maintenance dose of 50mg before sleeping.

We all know it's never a good idea to Google your symptoms or you'll end up believing the worse, after Google that should apply to the leaflet that comes with meds where they list every side effect known to humankind just to cover themselves.

Arymichele, we all have strange thoughts, we are allowed to have strange thoughts without worrying about them, they will go of their own accord when we grow bored with them and do no harm, that includes anxiety of dying which is only the normal instinct to avoid death exagerated tenfold by over sensitised nerves. If you did find yourself seriously contemplating suicide you must immediately go to your doctor ir and hospital a&e/ER and tell them but I'm sure it won't come to that.

[Mrsamsouth in reply to Jeff1943]

Do you know if Amitriptyline stop headaches, the doctor seems to think i have tension headaches and he gave me these tablets but i have only people say they are people with depression and it helps people sleep better

[Jeff1943 in reply to Mrsamsouth]

I should think that any anti depressant ir tranquiliser will prevent or relieve headaches caused by tension or anxiety or stress because by their nature they relieve these things. They help both depression and anxiety and help you sleep though they are not sleeping tablets as such and prescribing them fir sleeping soubds strange to me, there are drugs specifically for insomnia.

[Mrsamsouth in reply to Jeff1943]

I told the doctor i have headaches and i have anxiety and he gave me these tablets and i take 10mg a night, do you think that is enough to help me? I want to feel in control and not get side effects

[Jeff1943 in reply to Mrsamsouth]

That's a small dosage, enough to help you sleep but not an effective dose for anxiety or depression. Recently it has been discovered that amitriptyline in doses of about 10mg is good for nerve pain. We used to say, if you know how to spell amitriptyline you've been on it too long, but not really true.

[Mrsamsouth in reply to Jeff1943]

He thinks i have tension headaches so maybe that will help to stop them

[Jeff1943 in reply to Mrsamsouth]

Yes, Mrsamsouth, that could be, give it more time and see if it helps.