Help, I don't know what's wrong with me ..

[Hawraalaradi]

So this is my second year in college currently studying abroad I'm 20 years old soon to be 21. I found out last month that I went through anixety I never thought of it until I explained my satiation to the doctor one day suddenly I felt nervous and my heart beats where so fast like something bad is going to happen, my mind was racing with thoughts that in the end I can't recognize myself or people I know anymore it was really scary I felt I was insane and maybe lost my mind completely I starred at things for hours and nothing changed I cried for no reason and sometimes couldn't talk or express myself. The thing is the month before I was very normal until we started exams and they were very difficult so I worried a lot and also about other things and thought negatively of myself and thay I can't fit in socially anymore. I lost my self confidence can't even remember my knowledge the way I used to think about stuff and also forgot how I saw myself and others I might look normal but I am disattached from me and I act infront of my loved ones that I am okay but emotionally I don't feel a single thing to them just so I won't hurt their feelings, can someone please explain whats happening to me? I need the old me back

[Ravenhoney]

Your not crazy. The stress of the exams has put a strain on you mentally and it's taking a physical toll. Step back and take a deep breath. Take a break from studying and do something you enjoy. Make sure your eating right and getting good sleep. Your body needs this. Hang in there.

[Hawraalaradi in reply to Ravenhoney]

Something I forgot to mention is that I am an emotional person and take things personally which I hate about myself I guess somehow I kind of stopped them and now can't turn them on again .. thank you so much I will!

[Jeff1943]

Hawraalaradi, you've been stressing and worrying about your studies and your exams and your nervous system is beginning to complain. The cause of your symptoms is as simple as that, it can happen to anyone, it's not perculiar to you. When our nerves become over sensitive through too much stress they start to misfire and all those bad and scary feelings you mention are the result.

There's no reason to let those symptoms frighten you half to death, they aren't life threatening and they can't make you lose your mind. And they WILL go as soon as this present period of high anxiety passes. So what I suggest is: firstly, stop fighting against the symptoms because fighting only causes more tension and stress and that's the last thing your over sensitised nerves need right now.

Secondly, just accept these symptoms for the moment, accept them as if they were normal and accept them without fear. They may be new to you but those symptoms are well known to so many on this forum. By accepting them without adding extra fear to your nervous system you givethem a chance to recover. It will take time but you will recover.

As far as your studies are concerned, the cause of all your anxiety, perhaps you've been expecting too much from yourself. So continue with your studies making sure you take frequent breaks and always get a good night's sleep. Do your best as I'm sure you will and regardless of your exam results you will not have let yourself down and you might even surprise yourself and others.

[Hawraalaradi in reply to Jeff1943]

Your answer releved my doubts somehow I really hope so because I miss feeling happy and my sense of worth .. thank you so much and I'll concider what you said