I really need some help. I have suffered from anxiety disorder my whole life but I am not sure if that is what is behind how i have been feeling lately.
I have absolutely HORRIBLE depersonalization/derealization and extremely bothersome intrusivethoughts/images and feelings. For some reason, I suffer mainly from self harm OCD, even though I've never had ocd before in my life. So to me, it makes no sense. These harmful thoughts are literally driving me crazy. One of them is the CONSTANT feeling every single day, all day, that I am going to die. And the means of that happening is through suicide. I am terrified of that happening and I can't get it under control. I feel like I have lost my mind. I have never even thought about suicide in a general way EVER, and for it to be constantly in my head and won't leave me alone is awful and scary to say the least. I hope this is not what they call 'suicidal thoughts' because if so, I am in big trouble..
Thank you in advance to anyone who is able to help me. It is greatly appreciated!!!!