basically, i have generalized anxiety disorder which is where someone worries about anything and everything. I have an amazing boyfriend who i love very much and he loves me but recently we had a bad argument to the point of us nearly ending a 8 month relationship (our month anniversary today:D) we have sorted that out but i still worry about us. I worry about if people have died if they don't reply to my texts or messages , i worry about going home after school or work for fear of my family having a go at me for something i haven't done, i worry about what people think of me at school and dance used to be the only thing i could do without worrying what people thought of me but even now i have started to worry what people think of my body as i am not as thin as the other dancers. i have many panic attacks in a day that sometimes i can't even count at the end of the day and always feel as though i need to be any one apart from myself to make sure that people around me don't think there is anything wrong. All my friends think i am a really confident and loud person but that is to cover up my anxiety. I have always been quite anxious and would worry about people a lot more than other people do but probably about a year ago it got alot worse after i finished my gcse exams as i worried i didn't put enough effort in and i was in a relationship at the time that was abusive and he always put me down and made me feel like shit and after a while i started to believe it although i didn't want to but when you hear it so many times you just assume you are ugly, fat, annoying, ect. i have tried to talk to people at school about my problem but i find it really really hard to talk to anyone face to face about it for fear of them thinking im a weirdo and judge me because as human beings we are all very judgemental. i know i need help but i just need help to get help. its like a vicious cycle and i don't know what to do anymore.
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