These thoughts of mine....

[anxiouslady13]

So around this time every year I get thoughts like I'm going to go crazy and kill myself or like I need to hurt myself just to make sure it still hurts and it usually happens 2-3 weeks after a really bad panic attack. The thoughts terrify me because I'm afraid of death and I certainly don't want to leave my child without a mom. I haven't hurt myself or tried to commit suicide and I don't plan to but sometimes I feel like I'm going to go crazy and do it. Anyone else out there having similar thoughts?

[HopingCat]

You are not going to go crazy. That's just your anxiety being the devil. After I get panic attacks,since they come with depersonalization, I become very disoriented and get weird thought. Not like yours but about life and existentialism and wondering if I'm dreaming and that is disturbing but it's just your mind playing tricks on you. Zoloft took all those weird thoughts away. Also crazy people don't know they are crazy or going crazy so you are going to be fine.

[anxiouslady13 in reply to HopingCat]

Thanks for your reply. I tried zoloft and it didnt work for more than 10 months for me, then those upsetting thoughts came back really bad so i had to quit taking them. I like doing cognitive behavioural therapy, it helps.

[Goldfish_]

Keep busy and distract yourself. These thoughts are toxic!

[anxiouslady13 in reply to Goldfish_]

They are very toxic and very SCARY! I do like to distract myself when im having them though. Sometimes its hard to take my mind off thinking like that but keeping busy does help.

[Leopard45]

Yes I get them as well, worse when I am in my time of the month. I started Zoloft, but it isn't working yet just worked my way up to 100mg which is hopefully therapeutic enough for me

[anxiouslady13 in reply to Leopard45]

I hope Zoloft works out for you. It didn't agree with me so I had to stop taking it. I also get worse anxiety and panic during my monthly cycle. Tonight I'm not currently on my cycle but I am having some strange anxiety. Oh well I guess I will keep on toughing it out.