Well I've been feeling this way for about 1 1/2 months. I wake up anxious and I have thoughts creep in my head that won't go away and it doesn't help at all. These thoughts just stay in my head and won't leave. I was on antidepressants but my counselor recently took me off of them. I just wish I can feel and be my old self again the thoughts are disgusting and I will NEVER act on them! NEVER! But the thoughts just remain in my head and makes sick to my stomach and makes me want to hurt myself because I'm thinking of them. I feel like a horrible person.