Help me please

[avahxo]

Sorry for the long message but I need to find someone who can listen and maybe help me I’m honestly needing some sort of help I normally don’t think about suicide because I don’t want to die but I can’t live with these thoughts and feelings any longer 😴😴

My whole life basically I’ve had anxiety for years I’m use to anxiety but this what I have now I had 2 years ago it came suddenly just a horrid gut feeling of doom and it felt like something was telling me I was going to die soon no panic attacks nothing just a horrid feeling of dread wich makes me hot inside like I’m burning when I think about it then I went on citalopram and was doing great and then came of them was perfect for 9 months so happy honestly and then 1 week ago I got that horrid feeling again accept this time it feels more realer it doesn’t feel like I’ll die “soon” it feels like I’m dying now!! It honestly is so bizarre and most people don’t understand but I really feel like it’s real I cry and I cry because it honestly feels like I’m waiting to die and I can’t stop it happening it’s just a feeling a gut feeling i don’t go out anymore I just lay in bed all day I don’t eat or drink or do the toilet I just don’t know what to do anymore then I searched that up and it says people no when there going to die now it’s worse I just feel like my time here is over and I’m just waiting for it to happen I just stare at the walls and try accept it although I can’t cause I don’t want to die I really don’t I want to live and be happy ☹️☹️ Although I’ve had this before I just feel this time it’s gonna happen it’s so bad i wouldn’t wish this on my worst enemy I honestly beileve I’m dying.. thanks for reaching out to me I appreciate it loads and sorry for the long message I just need to vent I wake up every morning with this dread in the pit of my stomach it makes me cry 😫 I’m just siitttjng here right now waiting to die it’s so horrible please someone help me I feel I can’t be helped because it’s fate that is gonna happen 😭😭

[thistea1991]

Oh no! Have you called your doctor? It sounds like you are having serious anxiety attacks. You might need meds upped or changed. I can assure you that you aren't dying today. It's your anxiety tricking you. Please get out of the house and keep busy. Staying inside obsessing won't make you feel better. If you can go see your doctor. Anxiety loves tricking us. It wants us to be prepared for the worst. My anxiety is bad too. I always feel sick to my stomach thinking of my impending death too. I fear I'm going to get seriously sick and give it to my husband and then he leaves me because he is angry at me and hates me and i panic and cry. It's a cycle! A damn miserable cycle. It does you no good thinking about what anxiety tells you to think about. Challenge it. Why do you feel like you will for? Is there a specific reason? Why don't you attack anxiety back? When it shows you dying accept it. Picture your life ending. Picture your worst fears and accept them. That trains your anxiety to not fear them anymore.

[NemoAbella]

Avahxo! Hang-on! You’ll be alright! Thistea is right! It is a cycle. You’ll be alright soon, you’ll see the light, you just need not to give-up. Update us pls if how are you. God bless

[Nicki1984]

Hi sorry to hear you are struggling. You will get lots of advice on here but would be good if you could share what you have tried so far in managing your anxiety? First step here is to visit your doctor maybe try some meds but definitely get some counselling. In the meantime go on YouTube and try some meditation and breathing for anxiety videos. I would also write down your worries and work out your anxiety triggers xx

[Jeff1943]

Avahxo, you are NOT going to die and you are most certainly not going to die by your own hand and in a minute I will tell you why. But first you mustknow that if you feel like self-harming you must go see your doctor immediately or simply go to A&E/ER for help. Also it would be good to tell a family member or good friend exactly what you are going through so they can help you too and keep an eye on you,

This idea that you are going to die may be horrible but it is only a feeling, an obsessive feeling thrown up by your tired, over-worked nervous system. And you are not going to die or take your life because this feeling is not going to last for ever. I assure you of that.

You are experiencing anxiety disorder and the depression that comes out of anxiety. Something happened in your life to trigger that: it could have been stress, over-work, worry, disappointment etc. Whatever it was caused your nervous system to become over-sensitive and in this state they start playing tricks on you. They begin to exaggerate all the normal little concerns we have into major problems, mole hills become mountains. In your case the normal concern we all have not to die prematurely becomes magnified ten-fold into an obsessive fear if impending doom and imminant death. But it is only an exaggerated thought caused by your jangled nerves. You are going to live for a very long time, a full life, because bad thoughts caused by over sensitised nerves cannot kill you. So there is absoluteky no reason why you cannot pacify your nervous system and take back control of your life and enable the return of happiness and peace of mind.

First you must go and see your doctor and tell him/her how bad you are feeling and ask for some medication, maybe going back on the citalopram you mention that worked for you. Do that as a matter of priority.

Second I suggest you read a good sekf help book such as the classic 'Self help for your nerves' by Claire Weekes available from Amazon new or used for a couple of pounds/dollars. It will bring you immediate understanding, reassurance and offer you a method for complete recovery that has worked for tens of thousands of people. Why not do it, what's to lose?

I tell you Avahxo, you are going through a low point in your life but it is not the end of life, there are good days and times to come. I repeat, this feeling of doom is just a thought and a thought cannot kill you. All will be well, all manner of things will be well for you. The days are numbered for the feeling of doom, you are going to emerge from this dark period and it is going to happen soon.

So - see your doctor. Read the book. I wish you God's speed on your journey of recovery.

[avahxo]

Thanks everyone you have gave me great comfort!! Jeff you are a godsend such wise words appreciated x